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If you feel a bit low guys check out the video I just uploaded of my two boys killing themselves laughing at basically nothing but eachothers laugh. Boy how the innocence of a childs laughter can make you smile.. Love to you all xxxxxxx
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Well its been a ride I know that much, Im still not sure idf we are going to be ok. On the surface things seem better. Iam certainly not taking any crap anymore but I still have unanswered questions. I just dont seem to be able to find the right time to bring them up. I do have doubts even though he has promised me that he has not even thought about other women I know his mind and Im just so damn sus. I gave him the sim card that I found with his txt sex and contacts on I wanted him to destroy it in front of me. which he did, although he didnt understand why I still had it. I organised a mobile phone for us each in my name so all bills come to me, and bugger me if on the first bill there were charges for and internet site!1 I asked him if he had done anything I wouldnt lioke on his phone and he admitted to going on a porn site on his bloody phone!!!!! IS HE STUPID!!!! He said he wasnt trying to hide it as he knew I would be combing the bills and he thought as it wasnt a chat site I wouldnt care. IS HE STUPID????!!!!! He says he NOW understands what iam feeling and wont do it again. Iseeem to remember telling him on several occasions that to me it doesnt take physical contact for it to be cheating, AM I STUPID?????!!!!
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No sweet not stupid - just trying to claim honesty and trust back - just hanging on as am I - it's a hard ride hun but hang in there - message me if you want one on one support - believe me I know what you are going through.
I am sooo confused One minute he is putting the kids to bed the next he is asllepp with them . So I wake him up so we can spend some time together and he goes straight into our bed to go to sleep. Meanwhile kid 1 is still waiting to be tucked in by daddy. He has only been home a few hours!!! I said things were going to change and here Iam running around after him and the kids. Is he not willing to make an effort he was so sincere on the phone and we have been together 13 years so I know when he is sincere, Is it the guilt?? Does he just not want to face me. he was so complimentary when I picked hi up from the airport and now he has a wall up. i think he had a few drinks on the plane he flies the same flight every fortnite and the airhostesses give them wine for free on their way home. you think he would abstain so we could have clear heads Instead he just passes out!! I dont know what to do!
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Hate to use a cliche but Rome wasn't built in a day, unfortunately. I know that for my husband he went inward for a long time. It hurt him to look at me. He felt so bad about what he had done that he felt he didn't deserve anything nice from me and the kids. He did exactly what your husband is doing - just going to bed without a word or anything. For a while I thought "what am I - chopped liver????" It may be that your husband is hating himself at the moment. Eventually we talked it around and started working things through but it takes time, patience and motivation on both sides to make things work. You both have to make a commitment to making the relationship work. You also have to heal as individuals before you can heal together. Remember everybody has their own ways of dealing with these things. I know that I wanted my husband to be the best father and the best husband 5 minutes after I found out - after all he'd done his bit to stuff up my life and now it was time for him to "unstuff" it - like RIGHT NOW. Eventually he came round. I am always honest and upfront with him and will continue to be. As he sees me heal, he heals and then I feel better and then so does he. Still early days yet but the signs are pointing up for us - it will for you too. Hang in there and know that people like me are with you all the way.
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That's the very reason my motto is "live each day like it was your first". Live each day with the innocent view of the world, hope and trust that is our birth right. Who wants to live each day like it was our last - full of dread and regrets for friends forgotten and times not had. Hang on to those memories of your kids - they are precious.
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