More insecurities about my relationship
So Javid finally picked me up and things were a bit off at first. But after about fifteen minutes I feel things …
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So lately a new obstacle has planted itself firmly in my path to happiness with Javid. His friends. It never ceases to amaze me how someone can call themselves compassionate in one breathe and in the very next ridicule a person for their sexuality. Yesterday Javid hung out with a friend of his that I have only met once, that went on and on about how awful I was and ugly and mannish, and the kicker is Javid dissed me to hang out with him. I had gotten off of work, and we were headed to dinner and the next thing I know his friend calls, I am dropped off at home, and Javid is on his way over there. When Javid returned he apologized for it, and told me how his friend had behaved, so I called this friend and basically tried to tell him, he can be Javid's friend without talking about me, if he cannot accept me, than pretend I do not exist, right. Javid got kinda mad a me for calling him, and so I find myself in the impossible position of feeling like the bad guy. What can I do? His friends don't like me, and they even go as far as to try and convince Javid to break up with me. I am starting to feel like I have little to no control over my life anymore.
There is more to this story, I am just not ready to go into it right now.
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My dear jenna: i m wishing i could ring some of the friends necks..
But you were an adult in this paticular situation. What you did was be adult about it then get the normal guy response of o that was wrong.. Is the usual i get with my husband. Its a constant battle.. I m proud of you for standing up for yourself.. Who i m not proud of is javid for ditching you and then letting said friend bash you.. Which is where the want to ring thier necks comes from..
You have excelled so much and to have stupid dimwits be rude about you makes it most difficult which is understandable. I wish that i had something to good to be true to say.. But sometimes being the bad guy if your partner isnt up to it relieves some pressure from them.. Sometimes it doesnt but hopefully in this case it does.. Doesnt ither of them realize that you arose from ashes of soot and dust to glamorous living and independance.
You accomplished more then most ever will. Even though this journey isnt done yet you still have come so far down the yellow brick road that this behavior is disrespectful. First the lisa thing then consistant bashing by javids friends..
I d just send them all a letter and explain to them that its ok to not like me but please realize that i m with javid. We are a couple.. A one time visit doesnt mean i m a horrible person. I have feelings and dreams.. Hopes and fears just as you all do..
Phrase it simple and then ask if there would be a time to do a get together or something like a bbq to actually all get acqwainted. (sorry about the spelling errors :0( ...
So try that if it doesnt work you at least extended the hand.. If the person doesnt want to reach for that branch of peace o well. You did what you could.. Which is all any of can do..
Tons of hugs from me to you.
carriecatgirl