JennaB's Journal

I must confess, I have been so busy living my life lately,I have had little time to digest what has been going on with me.  I feel that my relationship with Javid is getting stronger and stronger.  I felt very threatened by this lesbian he works with named Lisa, but as of late, I have realised that when does he have time for someone else, when I am at work!?!?  And if he did, I am way confident that I get the better end of the stick.  He is constantly loving on me, taking me on romantic adventures, making love to me two, three, sometimes more times a day, and that is when I work an eight hour day.  To think that he is messing around is foolish.  Javid loves me. I am the one, he moved into his home, the first woman he admits to ever love. I am the one that he introduced to his family, is taking to a family wedding.  I am the one that shares his bed, that he spends his money on.  

To be honest, no one has ever treated me the way Javid has, I have never been been this happy.  I even told my sister everything, about being transgender and all, and she accepts and loves me just the same, she actually wasn't all that suprised.

You know, December of last year I vowed in my journal right here on DS that this was going to be the best year of my life, and my god, it is so coming true. Everything that I ever wanted, I am getting.  I have only dreamed of the kind of love and relationship I now have.  I am sitting here writing,feeling guilty because Javid is in bed waiting for me to return, we made love, and I got up to write me journal, only because I tried to earlier and we had to run arrands..so it is really the only time I have had to sit down and take a moment to tell all my friends here what has been going on with me.  We survived the drama of last friday night, and in a lot of ways I feel we are so much stronger because of it.  It really showed me what I have when I was packing my shit and preparing to loose it, it did the same for him.  Now it is almost perfect for us, but it isn't and I am sure there will be more bumps in the road, but I am so confident that we will be able to face them when the come.  We are such an amazing pair, the two of us.  So that is about it for now.  I need to go back to bed and cuddle with my lover.  It is my favorite time of day, sleep time, and waking up.   Auh... love.  Goodnight all.