I have not slept in 3 days, I am …
I have not slept in 3 days, I am really starting to feel it to. I dont know what my problem is. I am scared if I dont …
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I NEED SOME SLEEP!!!!!!!! What the hell? All I want is like a solid 5 hours. Is that too much to ask? I go to bed as soon as I feel tired and as soon as I get there, my brain won't shut the hell up!! Why? I'm going on 2 weeks of speratic, interupted sleep. Normally, sleep is the one thing I can count on. My boss offered me his "Dealer" discount on Home Hardware matresses and I think I'm gonna take him up on it! I don't really have the money to spend on an expensive bed right now, but, at this point I feel I have no choice! They say a good matress can be life changing! Here's hoping. Aside from not sleeping, we are super short handed at work this week, so I've had to be int. decorating consultant, cashier, lumber salesman and merchandiser all at once! My boss is such an idiot! He knew students were going back to school and others would be taking vacations. ARRRGGHHH!!! Sorry to ramble on about work! I've had to basically try to ignore all pain and sleep deperavation in order to make sure "work" doesn't suffer!
Bunch of Ass Clowns is what I say! Short of all that, I'm actually doing alright. Right now my feet are swollen and throbbing, it's just so damn hot here!!
Totally off topic, but, I've recently (for the last 4 months or so) have been secretly obssessing over having a baby! My husband and I have always said we didn't want kids. He's in a band that travels, so on and so forth. But lately, it's all I can think about! I think it's part of what's keeping me awake at night! As soon as I lay down, it just pops in my head! I've never once in my life wanted children until now. I'm already 31 soon enough to be 32. I feel like it's now or never. I've just been too scared to tell my husband! After all my talk about not wanting kids over the years, I'm scared he'll either laugh or bring up every bad situation health wise he can come up with.
I am scared of the pregnancy though. I'm already in enough pain! Will I be able to go through 9 months of MORE illnesses and symptoms? And what about when the baby comes?? Will I be well enough and able to take care of it?? So many what if's!! I need some help here guys!!
I'm gonna go try to get some sleep. I hope everyone is feeling awesome tonight! Hugs to all and to all a good night!!
Erin
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Erin, I sure hope you have been able to finally get some sleep; I know where your coming from. I have been sleeping better until last night, my mind was like going mock 50 and wouldn't quit. I feel for you. They say to do something that relaxes you to put you in the sleep mode, but it doesn't always work! Hand in there girl, my thoughts and prayers are with you.
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