Dreamster's Journal

I was going to write a happy entry because i was doing so much better today, but my STBX called me tonight. She needed a phone number from the house so we talked for about an hour about things. We are still going through with the divorce. I asked her again if she had a change of heart to work things out but she said, no. She said she is upset that she is getting the short end of the stick on our divorce agreement. She does seem to be willing to stick to what we already worked out and that is good. I guess I was hoping again to get another chance to try again. I do miss her still and I do love her. As we were ending our call,I told her that I wanted to tell her " I love you", so I did.

I wish things could be different. It's been such a long road. I'm sorry that things have to turn out the way they did. It is her choice to follow thru with the divorce. I am only following her lead. I have no choice but to move on like I have been doing....Sometimes it still hurts

I'll be better, just need to cry a little still I guess.........