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I am doing okay. I havent had much to write about lately. Working crazy hours this weekend and I will not be able to make a meeting or be at the Speaker Jam. I am glad to be getting the hours but I do miss my home group meetings. It looks the same for next week. I only have 2 nights off and one of them there is no home group meeting that night. Oh well, I will do the best I can. I went to a meeting Tuesday night and I loved it. I realized how much I missed those people. I had a great time. I was high on life when I left. It upsets me that I will not get to see those friends this weekend or next week. I got slack about calling my sponsor for a few days but I am back on track now. The other night I was lying in bed thinking and God knows...that thinking gets me in trouble. I was thinking about times when I used and different situations that I had been in and how I acted and reacted it was making me sick to my stomach and causing me to have anxiety and I couldnt get it out of my mind and then my mind went to the drugs. I could taste and smell the damn dope. I almost had to call my sponsor and I probably should have but I prayed and God brought me through it fine. The smell was the craziest thing. It was so real. Really screwed with my head. I am alot better now....thank goodness. I am so ready to start working steps and feeling good. I did play hide and seek the other day with my son and I had a blast...I really enjoyed it. Maybe things are getting better slowly? Hope all is well with my friends here. Talk to ya soon!
