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well today seems to be better than yesterday. I'm sure things will get better eventually? Foot still hurts, leg still hurts but emotionally I'm ok.
Hey Everyone
I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile, not the best news to give.
I am smoking again, no good excuse why but I will tell ya all that my father in law ( was like a dad to me ) passed away on June 14th, my husband is doing "ok", as best to be expected I guess. He has been sick but we thought from what the doctors said that we would have a little bit more time. I know he is in a better place and is not in pain anymore, but it still hurts and I am still raw right now.
On the other hand, my foot is terrible, hurts all the way up my leg and sometimes into my back, I don't remember doing anything and I DO NOT want to have to go back to the doctors to tell them somethings wrong. It's one of those things where your gut tells you something is wrong and I'm tired of doing this again and again.
I'm sorry about this journal, it is not uplifting what so ever, time heals all wounds and I will be better soon and my husband and I will have each other to lean on. My back...................I wish I could tell you what I'm gonna do............I don't know?
Love ya all
Jackie
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Well lets see. Still working. Dr. said it was going to take months for the nerve to heal in my back and leg and foot. So he has put me on Loratab and I am taking it continually. I stand on my feet all day and I get a good sign that I am over doing it when my complete foot goes numb and not just the toe. Not much I can do, have to stand all day. Just don't over due it, at least not anymore after my boss pretty much shrugged me off. Nice huh? Almost like she was upset that I even came back. I think she wanted to give my dept to someone else and that I came back before my 12 weeks was up ( by 2 days ) she legally couldn't!!!!!! Sucks to be her huh! Just had my eval though ( she didn't do it ) and was a really good one with a raise. Which I wasn't surprised. Should have been. I do though have 2 weeks vacation coming after June 26th though. Funny, just came back to work and I can take vacation! Wouldn't that upset her. I couldn't nor would I do that though but it feels good just thinking about it. Doesn't make me wrotten does it?
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Jackie all is not lost. You will know when you are ready to quit again. Sometimes we just use the nicotine as a crutch. I stopped for 6 months but when the pain became unbearable I went right back. I wish you luck and I am sorry about your father in law. Your friend laurie
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