Time not helping heal.
July 11, 2008 12:35pm
It has been over five months since my mom was torn from my life. I still feel like it happened yesterday. I can't get the …
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Ashlie
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About Me
I feel alone and that is what brought me to this wonderful support website. I am a 27 year old who feels like I'm still a teenager trying to get the world around me to recognize me as an adult. I am a college student that has recently had to take a break to focus on inproving myself from the inside out. I am making progress, slowly but surely. Although I miss school and can't yet work- I am happy to not have those stresses making it harder for me to cope through bad days. I look forward to improving myself and hopefully helping others along the way!
Interests
I enjoy spending time with my wonderful mother and keeping our home clean for us, playing with my dog and cats, watching movies, playing my game systems, doing latch hook (a type of craftwork), and reading fantasy books- any day I feel down those books take me out of the world I'm in and transport me to a much happier place. I also like to cook and try new recipes! My mom loves to taste test and sometimes the pets do too even if uninvited! Most of all, my main interest is to feel less lonely and to meet people who are like me and can understand me so we can validate and help each other!
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Loss
March 13, 2008 12:15am
On February 7, 2008 at approximately 7am I was in a car accident with my Mom. Although I only recieved minor cuts an …
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Journal Entry for October 21, 2007
October 21, 2007 4:13pm
Rhythmic waves
Adrift at sea
No one to hear
Only me
Unincombered
Yet still tied down
Independant, self motivated
Still wrapped and bound
Dark is …
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Journal Entry for October 18, 2007
October 18, 2007 5:06pm
Destination nowhere
To far to go
Waves are sloshing
To and fro
What will become
Of the boat overflow
Capsize, shipwreck
Yet wind doesn't …
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Journal Entry for October 13, 2007
October 13, 2007 7:35pm
It's October already! Wow! This week ends the first quarter for my mom's fifth graders. I've been volunteering in her classroom a …
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hugs.......hope you are okay!!!
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Hugs and love for you!!! Let me know how you are doing okay?? I miss you!!!
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hi sweetheart haven't heard from you in awhile... I love the poems you have written.. my prayers are with you.. let me know how you are? love ya, Lily Anna De'Grey
Celebrate
Hope you are doing good? I like your pic. It is cute.
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Dear, if you read this...........please seek help...........you have to shake yourself free to be happy.............your Mother wouldn't want you to be unhappy like this...........hugs!!!!
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
In August of 2004 I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder including social anxiety and agoraphobia. Over the last several months it has gotten so bad that I dropped out of college because I couldn't even concentrate to read my textbooks. I can't seem to sit still, I'm worrying all the time, and I'm in pain most of the time due to tension. I need help. This site is helping! I am actually looking forward to doing things to make me feel better!
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Helpful during panic attacks.
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- Silenced the 'emotional rollercoaster' in my head.
- Klonopin Not Working
- Had opposite effect & made my axiety worse.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Paxil Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Starting this soon.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Didn't help.
Close Panic Attacks
I didn't even know what a panic attack was when I started having them in 2004. I have them on a regular basis. Depending on how often I try to brave the world outside my home, I could be in a state of panic many times a day to not for weeks. Also, things that happen that are out of a routine (good or bad) cause emotional flux. Why does my body do this to me?
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- Does nothing.
- Klonopin Not Working
- Had opposite effect, made me worse.
- Paxil Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It's hard to find the right therapist and the right type of therapy.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Helped with panic attacks.
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Helps with panic attacks.
Open Self-Injury
I've been hurting myself since I was in my mid teens. I have cut, burnt, and made myself ill by overdosing on over the counter and/or perscription pills. I don't want to do this but I can't seem to stop. It seems to be the only release I have when I have bottled up emotions for too long or when I am feeling to much pain inside.
Treatments
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Start this soon.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've been suffering from depression on and off since I was in my mid-teens. Most of it came from mean words from my father that cause me to still have low self-esteem, low self-confidence, and a general sense that I'm not good enough. Many things trigger these feelings within me and when the do, look out for the water works. I look forward to feeling better though!
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Helps me feel less depressed.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Finding a good tharapist is hard work, but is worth all the effort.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Didn't help.
- Paxil Not Working
- Didn't help.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Didn't help.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My parents got divorced when I was nine years old and my mother took sole custody of me. Before that my father was physically and emotionally abusive to me.
Open Shyness
I've had low self esteem since I was in elementary school and I guess that's why I'm shy. Having anxiety (especially in social situations) doesn't help much. I am working everyday to be more outgoing and live life, not just exist.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Helps.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Didn't help me.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Didn't help me.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Too soon to tell.
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