Well my circumstances have been …
Well my circumstances have been falling to pieces lately but thankfully my spirits are still high. I am at the library …
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It's 8:45 am and I am exhausted. I can't sleep in this house anymore. I feel like the walls are closing in on me and I need to escape. I stayed in last night which is something I haven't done in a while. I watched "Inside Man" with Denzel Washington. Good movie but my eyes kept closing. I thought I would sleep like a baby but that was not to be. I am growing weary of being here. I feel like I am in limbo land again. Waiting..waiting..for my chance to break free from this experience so I can move forward. Of course it's all a state of mind but I can only hold on for so long. Max got to move out on his own in February 2006. He left me here with all of the responsibility and I have been taking care of everything on my own since then. I feel like I am being used and I am. I don't want to take care of him and his stuff anymore. I've done that for 18 years but he has me in a position where I am still doing it. Damn! I need to break free. I need one more signature from him on the sale of the house. I guess I can consider myself lucky to have gotten the signatures I have from him until now. He still has that power or what I consider power. He has ostrasized me. No contact whatsoever. It feels as though he is blaming me for his guilt feelings. What does he expect? How can I be friendly with someone who treated me terribly then abandoned me. I am not made of stone.
I have a viewing tomorrow at 1:45 pm. I will clean the floors and do a general clean-up. If the buyer wants to see the workshop, he is out of luck. Max told the agent he would clean it out and leave the door open but...wait for it....he didn't do it. Typical. I am feeling sorry for myself this morning. Luckily, Rob has invited me over for the day. We are going to the batting cage then having a barbaque this evening.
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Can't beat spending time at a BBQ with someone you like. Good luck on the viewing.
Keithesq
Sorry you are starting to feel trapped. Once you get out of there I think you will start being able to live again and not be so sressed about it.
kinoka
Max is a passive-aggressive maniac! I would have the locks changed so that you can seel the house - does he have bodies buried in that shop or what? You deserve a medal for your kindness and patience so don't feel guilty about doing what is necessary. Good people like you shouldn't be screwed arounnd like this!
steveng5691
Quess what the best thing to do is get away, found out my ex was with er boss for the past 3 years , i was gone as soon as I confirmed this,you need to move on with your life,it may not feel good but you will be better off in the long run
bjohns5