WatersMoon110's Journal

Since I've gotten home (on Tuesday) I've only had one small anxiety attack (while I was cleaning the rat cage, of all things - I have no clue why). I stopped, stood up, had some water, and breathed deeply, then went back to what I was doing.

My new meds seem to be keeping my mood pretty up (they are my miracle - more than I ever hoped for from medication!), though they also shorten my attention span and make it hard for me to think of the right words on occasion. I'm on the lowest dose possible (25 mgs 3 times a day), and I hope I won't have to take any more than that. But, as my counselor pointed out, if they stop working as well, I can always up the dose. Since they work now, they should keep working, I just might need more of them.

My Valentine's Day present was a parakeet, which I really wanted (and picked out). His name is Kama, after the Hindu God of Love (since it was Valentine's Day). Right now he's being really quiet and good, but I think he's still scared of me. We previously purchased his cage (18x18x26 - the minimum size for one parakeet is 18x18x18) and tons of toys and a few good perches a few days ago. He has a light green (organic) sheet to cover his cage (all of it at night, so he can sleep, and all but the front during the day, so he feels safer in there). And he has a seed mix to eat and millet for treats. I'm so excited, even though I know it could take him months to learn to be friendly with people.

That's about it. I'm going to try to post everyday, to get a better idea of how I'm feeling for the next week (so I can better report to my counselor).