ChrissyC75's Journal

Well I would first like to say hello, I found this site through Google. Well its been a hard few months, I finally started dating someone a good guy that is doing something with his life, for a while there I was just dating and well I would end up having sex and then they wouldn't call me again, I was doing this every night, I made myself sick 'cause I wasn't getting enough sleep. Anyways I met him and we started dating at that time I was living with my sister and her family, I moved there after I got out of drug treatment, then got my own place then well I moved back. SO I have this GREAT guy, and I know I am lucky.But a few weeks ago I thought that he started cheating on me, I was and well some days still think he. I have been off my meds for a while but I am now back on then, but still, I hate this Chrissy that I have turned into. I feel lost and lonely sometimes, like does he really love me like he says that he does. I don't know my mind just goes and goes sometimes. I hate jealousy, my friends say it cause I care, well can't i care with that dang evil feeling?