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September 11, 2008 4:03pm
i'm trying to live my life differently, take a whole new approach. i'm not going to hold anything in and let it kill me again...i'm …
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redmel
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About Me
I'm a graduate from UCR with a BA in Psychology and another BA in Sociology. Now I am going to a jc to take sciences for pre-req's for an entry-MSN program to become a nurse practitioner. I love my mom and siblings and will do anything in the world for them. They mean everything to me.
Interests
I love art, photography, basketball, scary movies, and cats.
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Journal Entry for February 22, 2007
February 22, 2007 2:19am
i know, it sucks...sorry, but it helps at times... Because of You Every time I see you I smile, wave, and laugh. Do you notice I'm a …
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No problem. No, I don't see them as often as I would like, but I am going to pick them up Thursday afternoon and take them back home on Monday afternoon.
Flower
Hi Red,I hope thing are going well (HUGS)
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Thanks. Life has been treating me pretty good. My kids live with my ex. I had to put my dog down 3 days befor her 3rd b-day. Huge hugs.
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Flower
Hi Red,Don't stress to much over school.((HUGS))
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Flower
Stay busy hun,it's the best way (HUGS)
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Support Groups
Close Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
Since I've been in college, I've always been sick. After blood work, the school health center told me I had pcos and prescribed birth control when I was 18. They didn't tell me much about the condition, so my mom bought a book and I've been doing the research about it on my own.
Treatments
- Oral Contraceptives Working / Worked
Close Depression
I hide everything from friends and family. I'm used to it from growing up with an alcoholic, druggy, physically and emotionally abusive father, and many alcoholics and drug addicts from both sides of the family. In the past 2 years, I've been taking everything out on myself, having sleeping problems, negative thoughts, and have always felt morose. Now I'm trying not to go back to my ways of inflicting harm on myself because I end up feeling worse after the fact and I don't want any more scars.
Treatments
Open Self-Injury
When I came to college, everything I bottled up seemed to explode to the surface. I took everything out on myself, burnt myself, cut, hit, and used safety pins to puncture and pull off small pieces of my skin. Every time I mess up, I have the urge to take it out on myself and am trying to get over this part of my life and move on...
Open Family Issues
My dad physically, verbally, and psychologically/mentally abused my mom in front of my brother, sister and myself and once hit me across my face when I tried helping her. He was also a drug and alcohol addict. He'd take everything out on her and I would never be able to stop him which I feel guilty about still. I'm still afraid of him and have never had a real dad, only a father.
Open Anxiety
I always feel anxious and stressed. Sometimes I don't have reasons to feel anxious and it just hits me all at once. I start shaking and get all jittery and even though I want to stop, I can't. The anxiety and depression have been giving me sleeping problems for two years. Although I've always known I had some type of anxiety problem, I have forced myself to get involved by having a position in my sorority, which forces me to go up in front of everyone and talk. It hasn't worked much...
Treatments
Open Sexual Abuse
when i was in 1st grade, my good friend molested me and made me do what she did to me back to her...she said it's what friends did and if we didn't we couldn't be friends anymore. i was afraid of telling my mom since our families were close, then i decided not to tell anyone. now i get grosed out with the thought of doing sexual stuff.
Open Female Sexual Issues
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