annieagain's Journal

Heat wave here it is officially above freezing one degree out now but I am not looking at below zero.  It is cold so cold my car doors frooze shut.  I simple cannot find enough warm clothes guess that means maybe I should do laundry!  Yesterday was a waste of time all day did not get much done and then I fell, I guess you know you have MS when you fall and just get up and think it was no big deal, because I just got up even laughed about it. Guess I should have taken advantage of being on the floor to exercise since it is the getting down that is the hardest now.  The cold is really affecting my bones, oh lordy I feel so old when it is so cold out!  One positive thing the sun is shinning which can make one be delusional that is is warmer out than it is.

I have not been exercising enough last few days, guess I picked a bad goal need to get on that one and maybe change my goal to eating 3meals a day, since I am doing pretty good with that one. It is amazing how much better that is making me and it does make me want to exercise more.

I am handling the dissappointment over the Wes visit pretty good, I had high hopes for that things though can only be rationalized so much before it becomes overdone.  or as I like to say I had a brain fart or I f***** with my mind!  The bop on the head from the other shoe falling still stings a little but it did not swell or give me a goose-egg so I am alright.  Actually I am happy to have a good friend from the experience and want nothing but happiness for him.  At this time just laying low on the dating front, too busy being mom and grandma now anyway.  I need a night of drinking though as I am feeling better maybe a cab ride to a local alcohol dispensing establishment would be a nice outing!  What am I saying the town I live in has but only one of those places and may I say it is a dive!  Wait a minute those are my kind of places.  No I am too old to hit a bar anymore especially by myself.  I just bought new lipstick so I guess I need to get my hair cut and open a bottle of wine here at home.  Then that would mean I would have to listen to rah!RAH!GO PIRATES! So maybe a bar sounds like a good idea!  See what swims in my head even when I am trying to relax.  Brain Farts!  EGADS!  I will make the princess work like Cinderella today and then she will sleep and I will relax tonight!

It is a sad day or maybe a good day when alcohol or retail therapy do not seem to be able to fix what ails you!  I guess there is hope that I may be growing up after all!