geminigal's Journal

Despite being exhausted, by the time I went to bed last night - I could not fall asleep. I wish there was a switch to turn off all the thoughts running around in my head.

Joe had a nice time at the Mother's Day cook out.  He came by, yesterday, and he seems to be in a better mood.  He said that he wished I was there - but he saw how much I was able to do (even with the power out for 14 hours) and told me it was worth all my efforts.  We still have to move a couple of pieces of furniture (that we moved from the flooding) back into the front room - but it looks a bit less chaotic - which is the look I was going for.  Hard to pretty a place up - in the midst of remodeling.

My parents and Grandma are looking forward to their trip.  I feel a pang of guilt - as I have not planned what we are going to do when they are here.  All my energies have been towards the party and towards work (both demands seem ceaseless).

I decided to bake my 3 cakes on Friday - and decorate 2 of them - so I will only have to deal with 1 cake on Sunday (that cake has fresh strawberries - so it really cannot be decorated before Friday).

Work is my main cause of angst.  I just found out, from my Project Manager, that the company that is interested in buying out my current employer will soon be filing a notice of intent.  Which means - depending on how smoothly things go - they will take over end of summer, early autumn.  My Project Manager talked to the company interested in acquiring our current company - to see if he could get a solid offer with the new company - as in pay and job position (since he does have another job offer lined up - and to start at the end of May) - and he got vague, canned answers about potential for growth in the company, blah, blah, blah...  But the could not guarantee him anything - the CEO stated since they are just starting the buy out, she cannot guarantee anything to anyone - but she heard wonderful things about him and feels he would be an asset to the company.  Well - that is nice - but it is nothing to take to the bank.  Now - he is back to confused - should he stay or should he go?  He told me that over the weekend, if the call to the CEO went well - he would stay.  Now - who knows??  I thought I would have had more information after his call - now we are all in the same feeling of in limbo.  He said that this company seems to hold our owners opinions in high regard - as to whom are assets to the company.  He said that we are referred to as the "core" employees of the company - but we both agree - will that guarantee a paycheck come the take over?  ANGST!!

Today - I will get a little mini - break - as I am getting my hair done.  Even though time is tight - I have to get it done - and I think it will be a nice break in the action (my only true break).

I got an email from one of Joe's best friends - and he mentioned (as did Joe) that he saw Joe on Mother's Day - at Walgreen's.  His friend was tickled, as he wrote that Joe has noooo idea what shall befall him on Sunday.   If we can pull this off - it will be amazing - as it is hard to hide bulk food, party items, etc.... from Joe - when this is his home.  I will feel better, when Joe's Mom hauls them to the Big House.

Joe's SIL is really making the party difficult.  She originally was going to bring a macaroni and cheese side dish, then she flipped to fruit and veggie trays with brownies (that is what she told me last week) - on Mother's Day - she told Soni she was brining a macaroni and cheese side dish.  I cannot figure out what is going on with her.  Joe's Mom was upset about his SIL brining desserts - as she said that I am the baker in the family - not SIL.  And since this is Joe's party - and I already said I was making desserts - why is SIL bringing one - when we could really use another side dish.  I told Joe's Mom that despite the fact this is frustrating - let her bring whatever she wants.  I will buy some french fries - so if we run out of sides - I can always pop french fries into the oven.  I told her that we will get the party done - no matter what - so let's concentrate on other things and let SIL bring whatever makes her happy.  Joe's Mom did take her actions as an insult to us - she said that SIL has never acted this strangely over a party.    In the back of my head, I was thinking, this is why I will not ask SIL for any help on Satruday evening (even though she offered) - I just do not trust what is going on beneath the surface.  All of this is because of a surprise 40th birthday - which should be a time for celebration - not angst and pole position for the family party planning.

Anyway - I feel better venting - I know this is a bit dry as I am rehashing things - but to get them out of my inner thoughts does me a world of good.

Love, peace, hope and happiness (and I should probably add sanity, too).