emsinmanchester’s Profile

Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/Spouse

I lost my boyfriend in 2005 and still feel the pain and guilt associated with that loss.

Treatments

Crying Somewhat Helpful

I tend to go through great periods of feeling really tearful. Sometimes it helps but often I feel embarassed, even if I do it on my own.

Grief Counseling Working / Worked

I have been growing through this process for the last 18 months and have found it useful - I can say things I can't say to other people. This is due to end soon. Scary

Prayer Working / Worked

I try and connect with my Catholic upbringing. Sometimes I feel better but not always. I think it is the comfort of the church building - rather than the prayer.

Close Anxiety

I have always been a worrying kind of person and have always had physical reactions tosocial discomfort and situation like bereavement. Since I suffered two major bereavements in 2004/05 my reactions and ability to control my feelings have become unmanagable. I have been known to make myself sleep, cry, vomit and even soil myself whilst waiting for feelings of great discomfort and anxiety to subside. I have been offered medication for depression before but have chosen to go down this root.