I have been on the computer most …
I have been on the computer most of the day. I think I am addicted to DS! So many wonderful people here and new …

68% on the practice, not that great but it's up 8%. I'm going to write one more next week and then write the real thing. I am soo ready to move out, I need my own space. My mom and I are starting to get on each others nerves. I am being patient and not reacting to her. But every action has a reaction, so it's really hard not to snap back at her.. Yesterday it was over a garden hose.. She yells at me get that hose off the lawn, I yell back that I did. She says I can see it from here its on the lawn. I say its your soaker hose it's been there for a week do you want me to move it for you.. She says my soaker hose is not there, if you moved the regular hose then there isn't a hose on the lawn.. I say I was just out there and you soaker hose is on the lawn would you like me to move it.. (see the gardeners were there to mow the lawn) She yells it is not. So I said fine if you say it isn't then I guess I was imagining I just saw it. She always has to be right. So I here her go down there to see and low and behold she moves her dam soaker hose off the lawn. And does she appologize for being a bitch no no she doesn't... Cause heaven forbid she actually be wrong.. They say we choose men who are like our mothers, I say no shit dick tracey. Anyways thanks for the vent. And thats my rant for the day, nite all.
I have been on the computer most of the day. I think I am addicted to DS! So many wonderful people here and new …
Jan 30th The Phantom and I went for a big ride at speed.I’m trying to ‘zchush’ him up as …
Boy, yesterday was one of those days... lost my temper plum... drove all the way to La Crosse for an appointment and my …
my moms always was rite no matter what as well. thats another reason it was like walkin on broken glass around her. i never knew what her mood would be and what would set her off which is why durin my teens i pulled away from her tho still loved her. i didnt have a choice and now i find myself bein the same way with the kids sometimes. they've seen me fly off the handle and then be distant at times. its so hard i know. ova a month ago now i spoke with her and she said she was comin down so i printed mass piks of the kidz for her then she never called or showed up. i waited a week and called her and she had her excuse but said shed be down the followin week and never called or showed then another week went by and another and with no calls or shows till i callled her yesterday and she said she didnt know we had a house phone that we've had since feb-march 07. so she wrote the number down (again) and said shed be down this sunday. seein is believin. her and my half sis used to drop in and call all the time but that was when they were tryin to convince me that erik would be better off with my half sis and tried to make me feel bad cause she cant have kids herself. which is sad and for 2yrs while she was married i offered to be her serragant but they never followed thru on it till i had my own child. and just cause the way he was concieved and i was only 20 they said hed be better off with her and that she would make a good mom when she couldnt even potty train her damn dogs! slowly thru the years i havent heard much or seen much of them. for moms bday last yr when i was forced to go to her stupid bday lunch where there were mass peeps and we ended up drivin thru a neighborhood that held the worst memories for me i freakin went. i will never do anything like that again tho. i dont know what it is with mothers and im sorry to say that im one of at times but we just suk! at least i apologize to my kids tho when i know ive hurt them. ure nt alone friend and im here if ya need anything. love ya girl ---karen
troubled2
sorry for the ramble i just wanted to lt ya know ure not alone. havin to live with ure 'rents when ure growin up is one thing but then we become our own peeps and they just dont want to see that sometimes. i wish u luk in gettin ure own place soon and ure in our prayers hun. jr says hi by the way. ---karen
troubled2
lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Mine was mommydearest--now I'm married to her/him
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