paatuncfan's Journal

So my friend Brittany was soo right.  I forced myself out of my bed late lastnite and I went out for a bit. Just to try and rid myself of my depression, but I ended up drinking some.  My friend took me ot eat afterwards and it was deliscious.

When I got home, I just couldn't seem to shake the feelings that I wanted to cut myself.  I tried, so I ended up with a razor and scissors inmy bed.  But I couldn't get the razor to break free . I tried and tried, but I couldnt get it out. Omg i was pissed and depressed. But of all the failures I have, I woke up today and was grateful that I couldnt get that razor to break free.  I still feel very depressed and all I want to do is sleep, but i didnt cut lastnite,so that works and I have another day "cut-free."