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well in college last week, all my presentations went very well. I got "A's" on all 3. This week I have FINAL EXAMS....fill in the blanks, m/c, and essay. Great...NOT...I always get mad anxiety and cant retain what I just read. I fucking hate exams, I'd soo rather write a paper. Those suck too, and of course part of that wish to write is true....on top of exams, I have 3 research papers due.
So really I don't know which way I am going right now. I "CUT" the shit out of my arms tonight. Don't care at all about making that goal of 6 mos and "NO CUTTING." At the moment, I just want to get thru this particular minute.
Fucking bills are lining up to take over me I feel...school shit is overwhelming, shitbag non working and very annoying while eating all my groceries..visitor is still in out apt. and i am very upset by this. I want her to get the fuck out. 3weeks of torturing us is more than enough. I'm very kind and will help almost anyone, but when that person is using us and that's what she is doing, then she needs to go...I don't care what her past is, it's now that I care about.
I'm not satisfyied with my "CUTTING" and I want to rip up my skin even more, but I have a job interview next Monday when school lets out....and i hope that i can cover the cuts up with some make up or something? I just need that job to pay some bills so we can keep living like other people do. The situation I am in now is ridiculous.
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I feel ya
Sakura
Try to keep it together. Wear long sleeves to the interview and I'm here if you need to talk.
ijustwantpeace
Aww..babe. I'm here for you. You can get through this. I'm so so proud of you for doing your paper and making 3 A's on your exams. That is freaking awesome and something to be very proud of. Your work is going to so pay off. Wear long sleeves to the interview. Just wear a button up shirt and it won't look weird. You are cold natured.:) You will make all A's, do great on the interview and get a job..which =money, and you will get the bitch out and everything is going to come together. Give it time babe. I know things are very tough at the moment, but you are going to get through this and be better than ever. I'm just so proud you are pulling it together even though times are hard and you are fixing things. As for the bitch, piece of shit, douch bag..haha..we will figure out something. She won't be there forever. I know you are always nice to everyone, and I know for you to be freaking about it she must really be using ya'll. I so wish I could do something about it. Once you get your feet on the ground you can do something about it. As for the cutting thing goes, I really wish you wouldn't, but I know right now you feel you need to.:( I love you so so much, and always will. Call and vent to me anytime. I love hearing your voice!! MUah!!!!!!!!..let me know how your final went today. Hope you get an A and things go AMAZing!!
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