paatuncfan’s Profile

Open Coming Out

I'm transgender

Open Marfan Syndrome

I was first diagnosed with marfan inKorea in 1993 and then it was confirmed at the Baltimore Veterans Affairs Hospital in 1994. I gota medical discharge because of it.

Open Bipolar Disorder

I have Bi Polar II. Seems to control my life and has been terrible for last 4yrs!

Treatments

Depakote Working / Worked

2000 mg's per day. Works ok.

Open Sexual Abuse

Once at 5yrs old by a woman & again at 13-17 by a neighborhood boy.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

My father has ALWAYS abused me emotionally. Nothing was ever good enough for him. I had a 3.o all thru HS, became a PARATROOPER & Served in Special Forces (think he like that shit; but i got hurt & discharged). I ran Nite Clubs and DJ'd on the radio...NOPE..to him I'm still a piece of shit. He's so MEAN & RUDE. 2 summers ago he pulled a gun on me, i put it to myhead & told him to save me from 35 more years of MISERY. Only then did he realize how hurt i am?

Treatments

Abuse Counseling Too Soon to Tell

Dr. Dawn Brett Trauma Consultants Bel Air, MD

Open Transgender

Been TG all my life. Tried to avoid it most of my life. Now I'm on female hormones and working on just trying to figure out how to be happy & how to stay alive.

Open Eating Disorders
Type: Bulimia

Anything SELF DESTRUCTIVE count me IN! Since this past Oct 2006, I've been making myself yack alot and it's much worse now to the point that my glands are always swollen and I hvae been yacking up some blood. I feel tooSCARED to talk to anyone about this.

Open Military Families

I'm a Disabled Paratrooper..50% from the V.A. for my messed up legs.

Open Stress Management

Just STRESSED TO THE MAX

Treatments

Seroquel Working / Worked

Dr's stopped it, give me ambien instead & trazadone to sleep.

Open Financial Challenges

I'm HORRIBLE with CASH. GET it--GONE..I get 712.00 per mo from veterans afairs, that's it to live on

Open Fibromyalgia

I Have MARFAN'S BONE DISEASE; it's very similiar & my legs are MISERABLE ALL THE TIME

Treatments

Physical Therapy Not Working

Just more painful

Open College Stress

I Always feel like i have to PUKE before every class

Treatments

Sleep Working / Worked

I SLEEP ALOT; esp helps when i feel depressed

Open Breakups & Divorce

shitty break up years ago, but i guess we all have it here & there

Treatments

Time Somewhat Helpful

Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide

I am a survivor of suicide attempts, been FLOWN to SHOCK TRAUMA 2 times...i guess GOD needs me here for awhile longer?

Treatments

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

still working thru issues and take meds daily

Talking Working / Worked

i tell everyone that i'm a survivor of atempted sucides..and i'm giving a speech on it this THUR 10/4/07

Writing Somewhat Helpful

i'm still here, because of writing in my journals and good therapist

Open Veterans

I'm a 50% Disabled Veteran.... PARATROOPER (89-94)

Open Female Sexual Issues

I'm TRANSGENDER (Male to Female) on Hormones Daily since July 2006

Open Codependency

I feel a need to be needed. Not quite sure why i am so needy? My ex called me a DRAMA QUEEN. When i mess up or fail others, i self injure.

Treatments

Music Working / Worked

i try to zone out with certain music and not hurt myself.

Open Insomnia

CANT SLEEP..imagine that

Treatments

Ambien Working / Worked

I have to turn off tv, but it usaully works

Ativan Not Working

doesnt make me tired, but i take it for anxiety sometimes

Trazodone Working / Worked

Works great when I take 5 or 6 of them

Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges

my STORY..Well, I'm a TRANSGENDER GIRL, (pre-op) and I STILL Love Women!

Open Cocaine Addiction & Recovery

Treatments

Detox Not Working

I got COMMITTED for attempted suicide.2006

Open Prescription Drug Abuse

bumbum MADE ME join