lostagain’s Profile

About Me

Ever since last April 5th, 2006, my life has been one big blur.Car accident 4/5, brain surgery 5/24, hubby leaves, &I am homeless, on disability, not wanting divorce and THEN March 10, my 50th, a call came-my 22 year old son was dead-my baby boy.I am in need-how do I live with any peace, without Bradford. Born in Athol MA, lived here until college at UMass in Amherst, 1975.Married@21 in 1978, pregnant in 5 months.Hubby in ROTC in USAF, so Kelly was born at Keesler AFB, Biloxi Mississippi 1/1/80.Pregnant again, William was born in Gardner Mass, while I awaited joining husband overseas in the Azores, Portuguese Islands 1/2 way b/t Boston & Lisbon.Moved to Mass. in 1983 for 4 years.Lost a baby boy at the start of my 7th month, 7/17/83, got pregnant again with my third and last child, Bradford, 6/19/84-3/9/07. Moved to Alabama in 1987, finally got my BA after taking last course at U.AL in Tuscaloosa.It took me 13 years, but I am a college graduate in Journalism/ English but worked 12 years in accounting.Divorced two months now, moved back to Athol Mass where I grew up and my son is now buried.Making it only one day, one hour, one minute at a time.I've been homeless, divorced and broke before.Now I am on disability due to my back and severe headaches since brain surgery 5/24/06, so my future is scarey and I've never been the mother of two, still numb with grief.

Interests

Love animals, especially horses, the beach, the mountains, to read at night before bed, to hear the sounds of the night in the country and look up in the black sky to see big, bright, beautiful stars.Was a big trip to the river, where we'd take off our watches, waking at dawn, eating only when hugry, fishing, and feeling like the only people in the world.Nature, I guess, keeps me in awe of God and all his creations-everyone of us.