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Friday, February 22, 2008

So I strayed away from this website for quite some time.. please take me back girls!!!! as some of you might know I was dating a guy for a few years and just recently broke up with him. my eating disorder started because of him. he use to tell me how unattractive I was and I always thought I had to prove myself to him by staying skinny.. so I left him, which was really hard but my eating disorder was fine.. I DIDN'T BINGE IN A MONTH!!!! Until tonight that is.. I have a new boyfriend now that treats me great! So why did I do it? I did talk to my boyfriend today.. he sent me a message saying he wanted some of his stuff back, and i deleted all the pictures of us online so I was looking at us.. do you think that's why I did it? Is it not gone and I was wrong it was because of him all this time. I WAS SO HAPPY I THOUGHT I SOLVED THIS.. Now I don't know what to do.. someone help please!!!!

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hey moocow. i'm a recent addition to this site, and it's such a relief to know people are going through the same situations/emotions i am. i've been anorexic for about 6 years, but have in the past months started bingeing bigtime and it makes me feel like shit. i just had a binge last nite and today, and am feeling like crap.
i'm sorry you're feeling like shit at the moment and i wish there could be a quickfix for all of us so that we knew why we starve/binge and could solve our problems.
hang in there, and let's take it one minute, one hour, one day at a time. anytime you want to chat or send me a message, please do, because if you're feeling like i am at the moment, you need support and love from people. even though i don't know you, i relate to what you're going through and offer you this support and hugs.
claire.

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its good youve come back to us sounds like ur making all the right steps to recovery stay away from him though he seems to be a major trigger for you! hopefuly ur new bf treats u right!

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