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Journal Entry for June 3, 2008 Mood

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

I feel like i failed my daughter. She hasn't been eating for 2 weeks, not because shes sick or anything, its so she gets skinny. She's 15, 4'11, and only 51 pounds. Im good friends with her doctor so we put her on a feeding tube. But she pulled it out and threw up when we left the room. So I had to make the choice to put her in rehab so she gets better. I feel like a failier as a father, that its my fualt she hates her self and is starving herself to be a twig. They will have a therapist with her all day, she'll be on a feeding tube getting lots of unsaturated fats and protiens to bup the tissues she needs. But when they took her into the room she gave me a look that could have killed me if i looked too long. It just hurts so much. I just want her to be better and love herself as much as i love her. no matter what i do to help her it just doesn't work. I dont know what to do anymore. I I just dont know

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It's not your fault dad, she did this to herself. You didn't fail her.

riverbleeder
tough love is whats its called not failing her keep up the tough love hang in there

maxiska
It's not something you did to her, it is a complex mental problem. There are lots of books out there, you may have to do some research. It is dangerous, and you have to intervene sometimes to save her life or health. If she was overdosing you wouldn't hesitate, or pay any attention to the looks she gives out. Good luck.

Thriver
your a dad. sounds like what my dad did. don't worry. you did what you had to do. nothing else you can do really.
if you ever need to talk im here. I know how it is for a dad. I will never forget the night I was admitted to the psychiatric ward and my dad left. It was hard. But he did it for the best.
okay im rambling sorry, i do that all the time.
I'm praying. trust me.

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