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July 13, 2008 1:46am
Why do we wait for someone else to tell us we have a purpose? Why do we let someone else define who we are? Why do other people and things give our …
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If you think I'm weird then I have something you don’t, Character!
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About Me
My name is Emily. I live and love New England. Served in the Air Force as a Security Forces Officer. I now do night security at a privately owned hotel. Single and no children.______________________ "Defending those who can not defend themselves."
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flying, writing, reading, people watching, hiking, boating, skiing, winter, going to the ocean in the rain at high tide, godfather, well most mob flicks__________________ ==I WORK WEDN TO SUN @ 1100pm TO 700 am EST, IF YOUR LOOKING FOR ME!== (usually on from 1230 till 0630)
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If you think I'm weird then I have something you don’t, Character!…
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Why do we wait for someone else to tell us we have a purpose? Why do we let someone else define who we…
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defenderdarksun gave lovewins a Hug 3:15am
sending you a bear hug, and a hope that things are well! take care and be yourself! -emily…
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AWESOME!
July 10, 2008 12:04am
So yayayayayyayayayyayay I am so excited! I got my sword Tuesday. In my family it means I have been accepted as …
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I need to know
June 30, 2008 1:33pm
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU MADE A ONE SIDED AGREEMENT WITH GOD OR A HIGHER POWER?
DOES ANYONE KNOW WHO Holly Piranian IS?
DOES ANYONE KNOW WHO …
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idk
June 23, 2008 1:19pm
can you be manic but not active?
i feel jump
itchy
i want to write and draw all the time
i want to sleep
and make things
my mind is slow
my mind is …
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I LIKE IT IT CUTEM I AM NOT FEELING TO GOOD THEE DAYS, I AM WORRIED NOW ABOUT THE SURGRY ,THEY WILL CUT ME OPEN TO REMOVE THE TISSUE OFF THE NERVE
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You sound like such a very wonderful, kind person. Here is a bear hug back to you. Fran
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Thanks my friend!Hope you're doing good.Big hug for you!
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thank you emily, i reallyt need this going thru alot lately, im just out of my witts, thanks and back toyou... ang
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Close Bipolar Disorder
I have bipolar diorder. The Air Force said I was BP and discharged me from duty, with Honorable Discharge. Being in the Air Force was a dream I had had sense I was small, getting kicked out shook everything I had. I felt as though I'd failed myself, my family, and my country. I've getting better thanks to friends here.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Lamictal Somewhat Helpful
- I'm not so sure.
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- Not so sure...
Close Self-Injury
I cut to make the pain be somewhere other than inside myself. I cut if I feel like I'm loosing control at all I would purposefully brake glasses and make it look like an accident. This way I could cut myself without getting caught. Or cut old wounds and say I was a slow healer. Or punch the hell out of myself just to feel
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Abstinence Somewhat Helpful
- not doing it but wanting to makes it hard...
Open Blindness & Visual Impairment
My mom had an allergic reaction to mold spores causing her to have scar tissue form over her retnias. It's genetic and I'm terrified of becomeing blind.
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- Surgery Working / Worked
- it worked to an extent, she has one eye and no depth perception.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- It helps me...she's not on here...
Open Migraine Headaches
I get massive migrains at least twice a week that just knock me out for anywhere between several hours to days.
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- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Insomnia
My sleeping is like waiting for a blue moon. I might catch a few mins here and there but I go for weeks without sleep. I take meds but its a fine line for it to work because if I don't stay on a shedual I wont sleep. My bipolar will effect it to. When depressed I'll sleep to much and when manic I wont sleep for up to fifteen days.
Treatments
- Ambien Somewhat Helpful
- It kind of helps but it takes a long time and if I miss it once I get so thrown off it's like I never was on it.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Dyslexia
I have always struggled with dyslexia and was diagnosed in the fifth grade. Reading and writing are hard for me, even reading out loud is had. Because of it I was always shy and withdrawn for fear of being wrong all the time. My dad and my aunt on my moms side have also been diagnosed.
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- Reading Working / Worked
- I try reading and writing all the time, looking up things making patters out of everything so I can learn it.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Shyness
I've always been resered and shy. A lot of the time it is because I don't want people to think I'm stupid or slow. I hide so people don't make fun of me which causes me to have very few friends.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Guillain-Barre Syndrome (GBS)
My grandfather is recovering and is starting to walk again. He got it twice and nearly died both times. I wasn't home and feel guilty about not being able to help, but I don't know.
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- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- we are all there to support him and he's getting better.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- again for me...he's not on here...
Open Military Families
My grandfather was Navy 22 years, I served in the Air Force. I have a lot of military friends, and no matter who runs the country I support the troops.
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- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Lactose Intolerance
I've been Lactose Intolerant sense I can remember, and when I was young I was once hospitalized for a week because of what I ate at a family reunion.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Just can't have some of the "fun" foods everyone else gets to have.
- Lactaid Not Working
- It didn't reall help a whole lot and the flavor sucks!
- Lactose-Free Diet Working / Worked
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Sports Injuries
Type: Shin SplintsI do all those things they tell you to prevent but its been over a year and they wont go away and have gotten worse. I get pain all the way up to my hip.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Families & Friends of Gays & Lesbians
I'm not gay/lesbian, but some of my friends are... thats it...enough said.
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- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Tinnitus
My ears ring all the time, sometimes getting to the point I can’t hear anything else. They hurt almost all the time, too. Sometimes when they get bad I can get dizzy and unbalanced, especially in elevators or change in altitude. I try ignoring it but that doesn’t help any.
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- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Meniere's Disease
If I do have this thing...I'm afraid of going deaf...
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- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Patience Not Working
- not doing anything does not make it get better...
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Schizotypal Personality DisorderOne of many next
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- DailyStrength Working / Worked
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