A Little Prayer for My Friends Here
September 3, 2008 2:56am
I've been reading thru a few discussions and journal entries tonite, and I'm feeling frustrated with all the monsters that are in our world. …
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About Me
The Cave picture makes me think of my life. So much darkness around me, but there is light guiding me on to something new and better. I feel like I'm just trying to make it in a world that seems so overwhelming at times. I've spent a long time trying to avoid feeling the pain of my past. And spent a long, long time avoiding everyone who crossed my path. Now I'm trying to connect with people again.
Interests
I am an artist. I love to read and write. And I love to go out dancing with friends. I love all kinds of music! One of my favorite things to do is go cruising in my car, with the music turned up and the windows down, anytime I need to think over a problem.
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gdslik gave reffas a Hug 2:53am
I was very impressed with all your doing with Carol and the Children's Center. You are an incredibly…
Wednesday
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gdslik and archangels are now friends 1:35pm
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gdslik gave maroonwhispers a Prayer 3:02am
Hoping everything is going ok for you. Glad to hear that the damage for you wasn't really, really bad.…
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A Lady Named Thelma...
August 30, 2008 4:21am
You know,it's not been often that I've felt that my prayers have been answered twice, but here goes... I've had an older lady that …
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More Answered Prayers
August 29, 2008 2:23am
I thought of two prayers that, I believe, God answered in really unique ways that I didn't expect. I thought I would share those tonite. One is …
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Answered Prayers
August 27, 2008 4:29am
Ok, this is going to be part of a series of entries to remind me of prayers that have been answered for me. I guess the most …
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A Little Light...
August 26, 2008 4:25am
I can't remember how much I've written lately about my feelings about God and the doubt and anger that I've been feeling because of the …
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Hugs and have a good night.
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Hey there, Thank you for your message ,sadly i have to yet again re-live the horror of what them pig,s did to me,once again i have to tell total stranger,s what i can,t even tell my own husband,i am being forced to yet again re-live the hell they put me through,i was suppost to be going to hospital over a hundred miles away to have yet another surgery but it has had to be cancelled due to this court case,i have to stand in front of the twisted bastard who,s idea it was to snatch a disabled woman off the street and play out his sick fantasy,s with his equally sick friend,s,i no longer share my bed with my husband i can,t,because i can,t stand any men near me,i flinch even when my own son gives me a hug and i know it hurt,s him but how can i explain to my own son and husband that what them sick pig,s did to me has not just affected my physical body but also my soul? if i,m honest i can,t understand why god allow,s these things to happen,why me? why? so not only is my head messed up my mind is as well,i just go through the motion,s of living,it,s my wedding annerversiry on saturday but i won,t be going anywhere even though i know he has booked the table at a restesurant,no i,ll just do what i always do,i,ll have yet another shower and scrub my body until it bleeds then i,ll go into my little bedroom and that is where i,ll stay until my husband and son have gone to bed,but i,ll tell you one thing i,ve become a good actress,i,ve learnt to hide my hell, to you all you,ll see is a confident woman who tell,s it how it is,but you don,t hear my silent scream,s when i am sat beside you because i have learnt to hide my hell, i,m sorry but i guess today is not one of my good days.shaz x
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I have only scratched the surface of all my new issues that i need to face. Your bravery and honesty have really helped and inspired me. Hugs
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thanks for ur hug and message not tomention the discussion... i am still quite a mess
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How are you doing? I was going through my friends list and well, I must have accidentally deleted you my mistake. I am so sorry about this. Hope all is well with you and talk to you soon my friend. Love and peace, Janelle
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Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
Sexual abuse from age 5-17 by babysitters, Uncle, then Father. Keep putting myself in abusive relationships. From 25 - 37 stopped dating. Now, just getting back into the world!. Now I'm still dealing with low self esteem, insecurity and trust issues. Hope to learn thru sharing here.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- First 2 counselors didn't help. On my 3rd, Kate, and she is wonderful!
- Prozac Not Working
- For a short time, I tried prozac for depression, but problem isn't chemical. I am afraid to face things at times, then put myself down for that.
Close Depression
Depression due to sexual abuse. Have times where all I want to do is sleep. Actually, if I'm not diligent, there are times where I will sleep and go to work and that is all. I am currently working on pushing myself into more activities and groups in order to keep active instead of letting myself go back into hiding.
Treatments
- Prozac Not Working
- I did not notice very much difference during treatment, or after I stopped.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- First 2 counselors didn't help. On my 3rd, Kate, and she is wonderful!
Open Single Parenting
Single mother of one daughter. It's just been the two of us for her whole life. Her father and I were never married and he has never seen her. I have chosen to remain single, even not dating thru most of her life. Things are rapidly changing for both of us though.....
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
Recently, my doctor told me he thought I had PCOS. I have most of the symptoms; weight gain, facial hair, irregular cycle, etc. My daughter is now showing most of the symptoms and she's only 18. Looking for support as we go thru trying to get this under control.
Open Breakups & Divorce
Had a very tramatic break up with boyfriend, and feel like I'm also losing my best friend of 7 years. Looking to heal and get into a healthy relationship for once!
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My family supports all the decisions I've had to make about the break-up with Jesse. It helps to have them cheering me on!
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- My support group is this site. Talking to my friends here is really helping to put things in perspective.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- First 2 counselors didn't help. On my 3rd, Kate, and she is wonderful!
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