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Monday, November 5, 2007

how do you stop the ache? I cant seem to escape the misery ive been dealt. my family just sees me as a HUGE disapointment and I hear it EVERYDAY. i just wish once in awhile they could lay off. They also hate derek with a passion...and well I really cant help that i love him. the feelings i have i just cant seem to stop. i know that it would be so much easier if i didnt love him...but the moment i hear his voice its like a wave comes over me and all the reasons im mad dissapate. im scared of the future because i dont want to feel blinded. I love our baby and i know he does too. i believe everything will work out but then again...believing isnt a reality. I just wish he would either disapear or come home to me and the baby...but we will have to see.

Hug alyci...

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You can't help who you love!! I know alot of people wo wish they didn't love someone so much!!
Things will be great once your buyndle of joy is here!!
Reen xx

Muma2b
Sweetie I understand your pain, the pain of heartbreak is the strongest emotion I've experienced! It knocked the wind out of me everytime I've experienced it, but I have the knowledge now to know that the storm always passes, if I can just ride it through!

Congratulations on your pregnancy, though I'm prob a bit late in my congrats... Remember, it's the way you see yourelf that's important, there will always be people who don't like what you do with yourself - even if you're a mother Theresa! So don't let others opinions about what sort of person you are get you down.
I pray that your heart is comforted and your happiness restored. Find the silver lining in the situation your in - there always is one - sometimes it's just hiding... keep looking it's there!

stylishJ
As always I am praying that derrick realizes how much he loves and needs you... AND the baby... I have to tell you though (from experience) that when your family fights and dislikes your man it can get PRETTY AWFUL....... I love and miss you...

Armygirlmags
My parents hate brandon and they havent even met him yet.. but that doesnt matter to me because i love him adn i feel that eventually they will except it if not then oh well. hes gonna be part of their lives regardless. YOu shouldnt let what they say second guess your feelings or your thoughts on bein with him hun. Just remember that your life once your over 18 isnt under there roof anymore and if you are happy with him that is all that matters because hes the one you will be spending the rest of your life with. your family will alwasy be there but not in the same sense that he is going to be. Things will work out.. im a firm believer that everything happens for a reason.. try to relax and not stress to much hun its not good for you trust me.

RANGERGFKATE