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Friday, June 13, 2008 | A General Update story

i haven't written in a while....had my surgery 5-27. my mitral valve was replaced with a brand new shiny mechanical one. some how-it had a hole in it!!!!!!!! my tricuspid valve was repaired. then i had the CABG-coronary artery bypass graft. a vein was taken from my left thigh and used to replace the circumflex artery that supplied blood to my heart. it was a VERY small blockage and if i hadn't needed the valve surgery,i wouldn not have had the CABG-at least not for a long while. but cuz of the stress on the heart,i woulda had a heart attack on the table....if any of you might have surgery like i had-stop reading now-i am NOT a happy camper!!!!! i still have pain in my chest-well gee-go figure-they sawed my sternum-chest bone open-and then spread it open.......cuz of my pale redhead skin-i am not healing " normally" i have open areas on my tghigh and chest. i am TERRIFIED of getting an infection! with me being diabetic-it could happen easier than w/ non diabetics.....i have NO appetite. rarely i will and then the food tastes like crap and then i feel nauseous. so i stop eating cuz the last thing i need is to puke!!!!!!! i have this red heart shape pillow from the hospital that i carry around in case i cough or sneeze-it helps to press it against my chest.....i just plain feel like SHIT!!!!!!!! i am on percocet and vicodin for the pain. i'm supposed to be walking,but the 1st week or so it was too humid out side. now-not too bad plus i was told i could used my t-mill. but i have ZERO energy from not eating!!!!!!! PLUS-today i go to see a nephrologist. my kidneys are messed up. for those who wanna know- my creatinine is 2.8!!!!!!!! an d my BUN is 46!!!!!!! so i am so scared that i will end up on fucking dialysis !!!!!!!!to go thru all this pain of this surgery and then need dialysis and maybe a new kidney!!!!!

i am just so sick of being sick! it just never seems to end-ya know?! hugs to ya alll! trish

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Aww.. Hun.. I hear you. I am in a similar situation with liver damage. I was only a few months away from liver failure when I quit my meds. Now my Dr. said it appears the liver is slowly improving. I will keep you in my thoughts.
HUGS!
Linda

Testycatlady
I know what you are going through Trish, I feel your pain. I lived it myself, well, not the kidney issue, that's scary all by itself. But the big picture, you made it through to the other side, and will recover, completely, and be all shiny and new.

Can you hear the artificial valve ticking at all? Sometimes I sound like a metronome, and if I am in the right position I can project the sound out of my mouth. Guaranteed to break the ice at parties.

Hang in there and let the healing process happen. I know its tough, but you have already survived the tough part. Now you have to again wait, keep your life on hold a little while longer.

I probably don't have to warn you about this, but beware the mood swings. Something happens to people who go through OH surgery, and for a while, a month or longer, you may be an emotional elevator out of control. Know that that is 'normal', its not you, its a reaction to what has happened to you and your body.

I hope you keep writing, at least if it helps you to get it out.

I'll of course be praying for you! Peace

stevemoon
trish I am sorry your having all this stuff happening to you. I know what being sick is I have had 67 operation since I was 3 months old. I was born with alot of medical problems. If you need to talk message me I will get back to you.

fusagirl308
My father went through bypass surgery in 1996 and his breast plate needed to be sawed and opened in order to access the heart. After all was said and done, he was in pain for about a month. After that he was alright and able to ambulate without any problems.

He also went through CABG classes. It has only been a brief period since you came home and you will heal over time. In any case, you will be in my prayers.

DMS1
WoW. Heart surgery is bad enough, but renl problems and being diabetic make it much more complicated.
You must feel really tired. Have you discussed the possibiity of havin a nasogastric tube. It will allow the nurses to feed you without you eating which is tireing.
If you do get an infection the drs can put you on intravenous antibiotics.
Was the CABG discussed with you prior to surgery?
Do you think the analgesia is adequate
you need a good rest.
Eddie X

manxman
Hopefully things will go better....I had open heart surgergy in Oct 2007 still recovering so I understand the frustration...the pain will go away in time just take your meds and take it easy .....I rushed things and went back into the hospital for exhaustion after 2 and half months.....the scars and everything you probabaly dont like what you see now but for me after 7 months it is still getting better.....with everything else good luck....keep up with the doctors orders and please eat it helps with your recovery
Hugs Jennie

jennieqt
Another comment...use the hug pillow it helps and with walking take it slow if it is to hot dont go out walk around the house or where you can in a climate ok place
Need any questions answered I am here
Hugs again Jennie

jennieqt
Hi Hon, I wish I had some magical wand that I could wave over you and make you be all better, but unfortunately I don't so I'll just have to offer you my prayers and good thoughts on your behalf. I know it sounds dorky but I'm with ya, Shockme. Hugz, EvieM.

EvieM
i wish i could take away the pain and suffering you are having, but look on the bright side, you have gone through the worst bit, although its early days and you want to feel normal now, take it one day at a time stick with it, lots of people here to help you, all i can do is send my love and best wishes to you, and you will be in my prayers

cazsy
Bless yu huni for going thru such a vital surgery. Im so glad they were able to find everything and fix it and I feel that yur kidneys will improve as yur heart heals also. HUggggaazzz and so much luvvvvvzz for yu shockme!

SuyB