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Well the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away...only it wasn't the Lord this time...Awhile back I told everyone how …
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It's been over a week now since I've eaten anything solid. I am taking liquids like clear soups and such. Water and other fluids. This isn't a for real fast like that guy I read about on the DS depression site, but he did give me the idea. I mean since I'm not doing anyhing any way why do I need to eat. Today was the first day that I was a little slow on my feet but it's not so bad. When ever I get real hungry I just remind myself that I don't need to eat. Bad people don't need to eat. Some how or another I let my budget get away with me and I only have $140 til the end of the month when the disablitly check comes so I have to save that for the cats and such. I'm learning that when you take benedryl with the regualr meds you get much more mileage for your bang. I talked to my ex about coming home and basically no way...he doesn't trust me...."you'll go crazy" again.....ok, let's just see how crazy I can get. I tried to shot myself in foot the other night but chichened out....I hate dealing with cops. I really just wanted to know what it would feel like. I have bought two of these super littler boxes for the cat and have had to get 2 new parts for breaking the 2 orginals and just broke them. Boy I really am a failure.....LOL.....they (SPCA) have found me a new kitten, wanted me to hurry up and come get him today....no way....if he lives through the weekend then maybe I'll take him.....
I'm so lonely. I miss people. I miss life. But I won't miss it much. i HATE this pain. I'm so sad...I wish I had a friend I could touch. Oh well, the lord giveth and the lord taketh away.....see you'll sometime
night, mother
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You are NOT a bad person.I know what it gets like without food,I'm not going to tell you how long I went without eating anything,but what I will say is it gets very nasty.Please honey try to eat something,I'm so worried about you
blackpig69
OH MY GOD GIRL.I am beside myself here for you I cant do anything here for you but you are not a bad person at all and to try to hurt yourself it is just awful.I am trying to reach out to you and be here for you.YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE EITHER SO GET THAT RIGHT OUTTA YOUR HEAD THERE TOO.And god don"t make no-bodys and nothings so get that outta your head too.And whatever else you have bad in your thoughts and heart get rid of that too.Seek Help and Your Family too.they will be there for you too.And another thing Girl PAT YOURSELF ON THE BACK FOR ALL THAT YOU HAVE ACCOPLISHED AND ALL THE GOOD THAT YOU ARE NOT FOR THE SMALL MISTAKES YOU HAVE MADE.EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES BIG AND SMALL ONES BUT IT DOES"T MEAN THEY ARE NO-BODYS OR NOTHINGS OR BAD PEOPLE THEY ARE HUMAN JUST LIKE YOU.SO FORGIVE AND LIVE . YOUR THE BOMB GIRL YOUR FRIEND ALWAYS. XOXO
giggy
I barely ate when I became unemployed. It was great. I lost weight and felt much better. Then I slowly started working more steadily, so I had to start eating again. Go figure.
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