today is ok , i dont feel so bad... …
today is ok , i dont feel so bad... i think ....thata litte by litte i'm geting better... but ho know?

I AM FEELING A LITTLE BETTER TODAY. WE TOOK THE KIDS TO THE CARNIVAL TODAY. I STILL DON'T HAVE A VEHICLE AND IT'S MAKING ME CRAZY. I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT MY SONS SLEEP PROBLEMS ARE DUE TO THE FACT THAT HE MIGHT HAVE BIPOLAR. I DID SOME RESEARCH AND IT'S NORMAL FOR KIDS W/ IT TO DO THAT. I STILL FEEL A LITT;E GUILTY THOUGH CUZ IF HE DOES HAVE IT HE GOT IT FROM ME.
today is ok , i dont feel so bad... i think ....thata litte by litte i'm geting better... but ho know?
Not to bad of a day today. Still tired but the pain in my spleen and liver has subsided a little bit. It makes me a …
It stopped raining last night so we went to the carnival.. she didnt bring money so i used my money for her and now i …
genetics suk big time i knw and i hope he dsnt have it but hes young so its best not to jump to conclusions. this is just me but i feel that somethin like that cant really be detected till the y are older. like my bro in law has his ldest on ridilin and everything cause hes hyper active and hes only like 10 if that!!! of course a 10 yr old will be hyper active just feed him foods that calm him dwn. of course this is just my view on things cause i knw my mother was on zoloft for yrs and went undiagnosed for her mental crap but i believe it wasnt her that passed on my probs but what i had been thru to cause me to be depressed and have to create an alter. erik is 7 and is hyper active its when kids dnt wanna do anything that i get worried. like jordan is only 5 but when we go to the skate park or the park where we live he just wants to sit there or when he does play its usually by himself. that worries me but we are waitin it out to see if its just a stage. kids are triky lil buggers and i dnt wanna diagnose em with somethin they dnt have just cause they are goin thru somethin ya knw. its a hard descion for any parent to make cause i dnt think any of us want our kids to be medicated. i wish u and ures the best and hope the right descion is made for all of yas :) ure all in our thoughts and prayers always and i hope u have a beautiful weekend :) stay strong and nevre give up :)
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