Journal Entry for June 22, 2008
I told Amy I need to not see her for a while. Or talk to her etc... It's making me feel very alone, even though I have people that I talk …
is feeling Bad
I'm a year plus out of college, work in teaching and music and am looking to go back to grad school.
I told Amy I need to not see her for a while. Or talk to her etc... It's making me feel very alone, even though I have people that I talk …
Rereading what I wrote for the day before my birthday just reinforces my current state. I feel like I don't have a whole lot of people I can just …
Tomorrow is my birthday.
Monday my friend got married and I almost lost it. I'm not crazy about their marriage, but I made peace with …
So Amy's taking some space. But I told her that shutting me out messes me up too much, so she's not doing that. There's no …
I might have said something on the phone to get my girlfriend fired.
<> Jesus Christ I'm so dumb.
So dumb dumb dumb dumb dumb.
I'm …
here is a hug for you.
here is a big hugs so you can feel better
here is a hug to help you get through the day.
Sorry for your problems maybe you can work them out. Hope the group works out.
Just keep reading those books you're reading until it's time to go to your 1st meeting. I know you can do it.
I had a temper as a child, my family was oppressive, I lashed out a few times. My anger went inside and is now re-manifesting itself. It's exploded a couple of times but hadn't been aimed at anybody. I pushed a friend of mine a couple weeks ago and punched a hole in my girlfriend's door recently.
I grew up with alcoholic parents. Not too physically abusive, but neglectful. I grew up thinking what I did didn't matter.
I'm always running my brain into the ground, coming up with little games and tricks to keep my mind busy. Also, I get nervous constantly about people thinking poorly of me.