Soph827's Journal

Well i'm back! as you all know ive been away on my first block week of study for my distance course (earlychildhood diploma of teaching 2nd yr)! It was altogether very challenging,stressful at times but informative and i suppose fun too lol!

1st challenge was not to use scales! my aunty had hidden them but under her bed and i had bare feet 1 day and my foot touched them! i knew it was them and gotta slight bit of anxiety but didnt look to see if it was them until later on in the week! and yes i was right she had hidden them under her bed gawd a bit too easy lol! so i pushed them further under so i would try to stop thinking about them!

but the scales and sumthing else that is stressing me at the moment! has been playing on my mind on and off (mainly on all week)!

So i binged a lot this week,felt fat at times but not overly bad! purged not so much but enough as to not feel bloated and fat! ( yes of course i wna stop doing this but cant if i keep binging grrr lol) This binging was over my anxiety of the scales,another problem that has not yet been solved yet! i will talk about later! and just the pressure to be committed to getting up and going to college every day this week!

Monday was easy i was motivated,happy , got up and went 4 a run b4hand

tues not so good no exercise binge and a bit of purgn!

wed,thurs were the same! but fri and today have sorta coome outta it a bit! It wasnt all bad though! i went to a movie with friends and talked till midnight tuesday night or mightve been weds cant quite remember now! and yesterday i felt sooooooooo yuck and fat at lunchtime that i just was like F!!! food im not doing this binging thing and no exercise any longer and called dad while walking in my lunch break for the hr so that got me feeling a bit better!

Then went to a move with a friend fri night and went shopping! we saw Mammamia (seen it twice now!) i recommend any1 who likes musicals to see it! actually 1 song in it was 1 Mala sang on a vid entry a while ago so i thought of u when i saw that hun!!!!!!! muwah!

ummm i bought my dad a bday present it was a nutrition and fitness in ur 50's book so he appreciated that! and i bought a new vest which is awesum! black with a big fluffy hood! and sum kool luv heart shaped sunnies! yeh it is winter here so i dunno i just bort em cos thea koollol! and hopefully can use em on a glary day driving!

So now i'm home! i went for a run in the rain this morning and got my shoes saturated! so my aunty gave me these boots she bought in ireland way back,ages ago to wear and they r awesum! then went back to the mall and bought mums bday present and visited rellies b4 drivn bk home!

home sweet home arghhhhhhh i luv it! haha!

So anyway thats how my weeks been! i had 161 emails wen i got on here 2nite cos i hvnt checked all week talk about overwhelming lol! i'm sorry if i havent commented on ur journals this week but hey im back now and from now on i will lol!

luv u all!