Calus's Journal

I am surrounded by a lot of women at work but one in particular always melts my heart whenever I talk to her. She has a wonderful personality and a gorgeous physique, and she has peculiar way of being funny and classy at the same time. As much as I like her I know nothing will ever develop because she's married and has a child, but sometimes I can't help but wonder does everyone really have a soulmate or is it all just a matter of running into someone who is compatible with you at a precise moment in both of your lives? Because had I met this woman years ago when she was single I definitely would have asked her out, and judging by the way we talk I am going to go out on a limb and say that chances are high that she would have agreed. Who knows what could have developed if the cirumstances between me and her had been more favorable then? I guess it's pointless to consider something like that happening but it does make me question a lot of things, like why I am 27 years old and have about as much experience in relationships as a high schooler. I think BP has ruined any chance of me ever meeting my soulmate as I've never been in a relationship for longer than a few months without having it explode in my face.