rjanie's Journal

okay im feelin up n down all at the same time , mmm think i forgot about mixed eposides , i certainly havent been stuck in one for a long time , so taken me a wee while to realise whats goin on , okay truth time , i stopped takin my meds , thought they we're makin me worse , thought it was far better to have a wee joint to calm me down , prob one of the reasons i havent journaled because a wee joint becomes a big joint one joint become 2 joints , till im back at the point of smokin them like ciggs , not good i know and thats what has been happenin for the last couple of months so now , im manic , or maybe not too manic , racin thoughts that dont stop cant seem to slow my mind down ive put a deposit down on a house im not sure if i can afford , well maybe but only if i get mym finger out my backside n pull it together , off to see the p doc next week , so i will go back on my meds soon , agggggggggggraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa is bout all i have left to say , thank you to anybody who takes the time to read my journal , i know ive been a rubbish friend of late , o miss you all , lots of love n cuddles n snuggles xxxxxxxxxx