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Journal Entry for June 18, 2008 Mood

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

I woke up this morning, looking at moms pictures on the dresser, so strange to think who will be the first to call me this morning to wish me a happy bday. She was always first!

I wore her ring and earrings and things that reminded me of her. Our strength bracelets that me and my sisters and mom wore from the day she was diagnosed. I wear hers now. All these little things and I kept thinking about her.

My sister and 5 close friends went to spa to relax. My sister was so amazing. Had fruit and cookies and scones and muffins. Champagne for a toast and she burst into tears, of course all followed suit. We had our facials, massages, manicures/pedicures and then went to lunch. It was nice, relaxing and good conversation! Mommy was definately missed, but we managed to share a few laughs. What I wouldn't do to share a hug, whisper a kiss from her.

I know its normal to feel this way on certain milestone days. My dad called me at 7:40am this morning, he was my first call. God I love him, But, he didnt want to come to dinner with us. He wanted to be home. He brought me red roses (our favorite flower). Growing up he had a rose garden right outside the kitchen windows., every year on my bday, he made a great big sign that said "Happy Birthday Lori, what a love".... so it was amazing that he did that.

i'ts a bittersweet day, I have so much to be thankful for.

God Bless YOU All..... !

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Bittersweet....yes... Wishing you a year ahead filled with more happiness than you imagine.

GoldenLox18
How sweet..I am glad that you are able to smile today and think of your mom in such a sweet and tender way...you will always be able to do that, but each time it will get a little easier...I am glad that you have your sister, your family and you father to lean on...how is your father handling things? Happy Birthday!

mysticthunder
I'm so glad you were able to enjoy your birthday. God bless you! Your mother was smiling on you today...I know you could feel her spirit with you! Hugs

junebug
Hey lori, It is good to celibrate life and your mom was with you all day I am sure. We tend to forget that all though our loved one are physiaclly gone they are so locked in our hearts forever. So on this day after your birthday know you mom is celibrate the joy you brought to her since your birth. Happy Belated birthday Lori. May God continue to bless you and your family. BIG HUG!!!

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