Journal Entry for May 28, 2007
May 28, 2007 9:40pm
Oh wow,
Its been awhile since I last wrote! Which is great, but then again isnt, …
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About Me
The only thing I can tell you about me is, I am a Mom Of 4 beatifuful little girls, they are 13, 8, 6, 4. They are my World. Beyond that I just don't know who I am, I havent had the time and life experiences that people my age have, I have been a wife and stay at home mom for so long and don't know how to start over, Its trying and diffucult , but I made the first step by making up my mind to go back to school. I hope I stick with it, I really don't have a choice. I am here for support during this is a very trying time in my life, I just need some fresh outlooks on life. I am trying to learn to be the best person I can be right now. Other than that I really could'nt tell you.
Interests
My interests are another thing, I don't know, cause I don't know who I am? I am very involved in my childrens activities and that leaves very little time for any interests that I may have. My girls are involved in All-Star Cheerleading, this requires a very large committment on my part. If you don't know what this intels, simply put we travel the country competing for national titles. I also have loved the sport of gymnastics my entire life, I was a gymnast up till I was 10, Now my children have fallen in love with the sport, My 8 year old is a competative gymnast also, I am so proud of her accomplishments. She has even got me thinking about getting back into it, (or at Least attempt too LOL!!!). I joined a parent squad at cheerleading, if not for anything other than to have adult conversation, and to do something that does'nt involve the girls, and try to focus my mind on other things.
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Journal Entry for May 3, 2007
May 3, 2007 1:06am
Well.... its been a while since I last wrote, just thought i'd give ya all an update. First, my gils have their final cheer comp this wkend in …
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Journal Entry for April 11, 2007
April 11, 2007 3:37am
....Well, I havent written in awhile. As of today, its been 3 weeks since hubby has decided he made a mistake. He is going to therapy now and G.A. he …
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Journal Entry for April 2, 2007
April 2, 2007 12:44pm
....OK, Home from second Nationals. Day one Kassidy's (My youngest)team was 6 out of 6, Day 2 the same they placed 6th. They just were'nt together …
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Journal Entry for March 27, 2007
March 27, 2007 6:45pm
.....k since the last time I wrote, he has spent everyday with the girls, My oldest thinks hes acting, I do not know what to think? He is going to …
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Close Breakups & Divorce
Very Very Long. In A nutshell, I have 4 daughters, and a jerk that left today!!! He did it so ugly to right in front of our girls.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- I am the only one going. I started before he walked out in hopes of saving the marriage, but he never came.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- It helps to vent, I refuse to vent in front of my girls.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Been on it for 2 years,it helps I am sane at the moment!!!
- Anger Management Somewhat Helpful
- Well in the 2 months I have been in therapy I havent had a outburst. Even with what he is putting me through right now I am keeping my composure, and he's pissed, I believe he wants me to lose it, just so he can blame someone other than himself for wahat he is doing to our family?
Close Depression
2 years on meds, works for the most part, pretty challenged right now w/ hubby walking out.
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- have no problems with it.
Open Anxiety
I am a constant worrier, I always look at worse case senerio, I can not see the positive in anything?
Treatments
- Ativan Not Working
- Did'nt work at all I actually felt worse.
- Xanax Not Working
- I would not recommend the xr, But my issue with xr is my doctor gave me to much to fast and overdosed me!!!
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- works better than xanax xr
Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
I have a very rumbunctious 4 year old. She does'nt quite understand the concept of divorce. I really don't even know how to explain it either, because dad moves to another bedroom and not out of our home, so it just makes explaining it confusing.
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- I need alot with this one, Time out work the best. Also taking away her DS works even better.
Open Parenting Big Kids (5-8)
I have two girls in this age group. One 6 and one 8. It has been a very trying couple of months. My husband wants a divorce, he has informed our children of this but is only confusing them more by refusing to move out. He has moved to another bedroom in our home. My 8 year old suffers from migrains as a result of a car accident, and we are now discovering further damage as well. My 6 year old we don't quite know what's wrong w/ her. She has intense mood swings, and problems in school.
Treatments
- Listening Working / Worked
- I try to for them, they are so confused by this whole situation, and I can't give them the false hope they so desperatly long for.
Open Parenting Teenagers (12-18)
I have a 13 year old boy crazy daughter, who is trying to hard to grow up. It does not help much that she looks 16. She is very angry right now at her dad. She hates him for wanting a divorce. I don't know what to say to her. I don't want to say negative things about him to her, she will only resent me for it. I try to be positive but it's very hard.
Open Gambling Addiction & Recovery
I am a victim of my husbands madness. He has lost all equity in our home, as well as us. He decided he now wants a divorce. Gambling destroys families and it is so devastating to accept. I hope to gain strength diuring this trying time.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I have been going to therapy to try to understand why, and try to forgive. I was on my way to forgiveness and now he wants a divorce. I still go b/c it makes me better.
Open Alcoholism
Well I am Living w/a alcoholic husband. Among other problems, My hubby has jepordized everything in our lives, and all started w/ gambling, then drinking more intense, We are now at the point where his job is at risk, you see he got a DUI last night. He is a cop? I am devestated by his self destruction, any insight into a addict mind would help me. Thank you
Open Obesity
Well, in short the way I viewed my self was awful, I was a baby machine basically during the marriage and put on a good 100 lbs or so. Basically I have tried everything, until I decided I would do something about it,I was never able to keep the weight off. Last Jan'06, I had enough, herniated disc was getting worse, I had to do something. I made a resolution to lose the weight. It has been 14 months I am up to 70lbs lost on my own, and I am so close to my goal I can taste it. Only 30 more to go.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- I follow the south beach principles. No white flour and no sugar. I do indulge sometimes, and I have never gained any weight back yet. So what I am doing is working!!
- Breast Feeding Not Working
- yeah right I lost maybe nothing I was more when I stopped breast feeding at 14 months,Than when I started!!!
- Physical Exercise Somewhat Helpful
- I a not a exercise person, Although I do belong on a parent Cheerleading Team. We practice 1-2 days a week and that is my exercise.
- Phentermine Working / Worked
- This is doctor prescribed, I started this about 8 months ago and yes it has helped me tremondously!!!
- Bontril Working / Worked
- This is doctor prescribed, I started this about 8 months ago and yes it has helped me tremondously!!!
- HCT Working / Worked
- This is basically a water pill, it does help, but be cautious pittasium(sp) ca be depleted very quickly. Oj or a banana with it.
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