Journal Entry for June 15, 2007
ITS BEEN A ROUGH COUPLE OF DAYS..NOT ONLY HAVE I BEEN DEPRESSED SEVERLY, BUT WHAT IS MAKING IT WORSE IS THE FACT I HAVE BEEN AT THE HOSPTIAL …
is feeling Bad
I am 50 years old, and the survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I also am a survivor of two x-husbands, one who tried to kill me, and the second who sodomized me for 2 hours while having me tied up and gagged. I have Bipolar 1, Depression Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Severe Anxiety, Fatigue Syndrome, Myalgias, Severe Anger Issues Am now signed up for a year long class for my Borderline Personality Disorder.
I LOVE TO CROCHET, READ, LISTEN TO OLDIES BUT GOODIES, LEARN NEW SYMBOL CROCHETING, KNITTING, YAKKING ALOT, LISTENING TO THE RAIN, TRAINS, AND THE SOUND OF THUNDER. I LIKE STANDING IN THE RAIN TO GET THE FEELING OF BEING CLEANSED
ITS BEEN A ROUGH COUPLE OF DAYS..NOT ONLY HAVE I BEEN DEPRESSED SEVERLY, BUT WHAT IS MAKING IT WORSE IS THE FACT I HAVE BEEN AT THE HOSPTIAL …
LET ME TELL YOU A STORY
ABOUT A LITTLE GIRL
WHO HAD TO HIDE A SECRET
THAT WAS KILLING HER INSIDE
UNTIL SHE FOUND SOMEONE
WHO LISTENED OH SO WELL
SHE …
STOP, LOOK, LISTEN
HERE COMES THE POURING RAINS
THE THUNDER IS LIKE LISTENING
TO THE WHEELS OF A TRAIN
THE LIGHTING GIVES YOU SHUDDERS
AND MAKES YOU CURL …
AS I SAT HERE TODAY, AND READING SOME REPLIES I MADE TO MESSAGES, I SEE I MADE A HORRIBLE MISTAKE IN SAYING YOU PEOPLE, THAT IS NOT HOW I MEANT …
HAVE YOU EVER LISTENED
TO THE SOUNDS OF A TRAIN
AS IT PASSES SLOWLY
DOWN THE LONG RAILS AGAIN
AS IT BLOWS IT'S WHISTLE
TO LET YOU KNOW IT'S …
I am reliving the hell of being sexually abused my male members of my family...i am having flashbacks, depressivie disorder and anger issues over it, and have now found out that I now have Borderline Personality Disorder..JUST FOUND OUT TODAY I HAVE FIBROMYALGIAS..