Marah's Journal

There needs to be a "theme" message that says Blah.....  Another grey, cold rainy day here in Central Oh, big surprise.  Went for a 3 mile treadmill run this morning.  Felt good physically, but emotionally, just really didn't want to be there.  I have an appt with the derm doc this morning to have a bunch of bumps and tags removed.  I am really dreading it, not because of the pain, but because of him.  I know how much pain is involved because I had this done once before, like 10 years ago.  Of course that doc only charged 300 dollars, not 3,000 dollars and he wasn't a dick like this one is, so he didn't make me feel like I was somehow stupid or evil for wanting to have this done.  I don't know how many he will actually do, but he just has to do all of the ones at the bra line, because I am tired of getting blood stains on my bras from when they get irritated and bleed!  And since I am paying the "cosmetic" price for this procedure and he won't even see if insurance will cover it, he is going to get the couple of rather large ones off my neck!  so there!  Anyway, really not looking forward to this.  I should be, but I'm not.

Update:  Okay, so it's done.  He didn't do the ones on my neck.  Long story short, he had trouble with the numbing.  It was pretty painful, but I don't care.  At one point he said, "so are you having second thoughts?"  I firmly told him "Absolutely Not!"  He did some that I really didn't think he would do, because they were pretty large tumors.  And by the time he finished my chest and stomach, I was ready for him to be done.  He gave me a script for darvacet, he said when the numbing wears off, I may need it.  I wanted to say, "um, what numbing".  Not painful yet, but I am self medicating with peanut m&m's.  But all of the ones at the bra line, gone.  Halleluia!!!!!