today is the 3rd day i have been sleeping at a hotel away from my family for the first time in 10 yrs and it really sucks yet it is something that needed to happen for me to put things into perspective.My wife is the greatest woman and i have not been fair to her with my drinking combined with my inconsiderate times i have been coming home.I should of listened to her as she has been warning me about my drinking and how it was chipping away at her feelings and trust for me.Today i feel sad yet i need to stay strong and direct my energy into fixing this flaw in my character.