Titles don't sum it up...
October 1, 2008 12:44am
There comes a point in a whirlwind of crap when you stop, look at the person caught up in it with you, and say--perplexedly: …
Goal Completed on Oct 1, 08
Chinadog55’s Profile
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Chinadog55
is feeling Horrible
About Me
I live in AZ with my hubby and my 7 yr old son, work full time. I lost my brother in April of 2007 to suicide. His name is Joe, he was my younger brother. My parents and sister all live here too, as does my husbands family. I am here to try to find the positives in life now, not to overlook what's good despite the cloud that will always cover my life now that Joe is gone.
Interests
The outdoors: taking out the side-by-side with us, the dogs, and finding a remote trail on the side of a mountain that leads to a place that looks like it hasn't seen humans in centuries. Camping and counting satellites in the night sky. Fishing. My '73 Formula Franken-bird. Scary movies, John Candy, Captain Caveman. My work in LE.
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Recent Activity
October 1
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Chinadog55 commented on GenusVillainus’s journal entry In my field of paper flowers... 12:54am
Wow, where you tired after a dream like that?…
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Chinadog55 wrote a journal entry updating their Make my Dog Less Stupid goal 12:44am
There comes a point in a whirlwind of crap when you stop, look at the person caught up in it with you,…
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Chinadog55 changed their mood to Horrible 12:44am
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Chinadog55 changed their mood to Bad 12:44am
September 26
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Chinadog55 changed their mood to OK 12:41am
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Eh.
September 3, 2008 11:47pm
Nothing's perfect, but it's been good enough. I wonder, off topic, if this will still show up under "Making My Dog Less …
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Life Be a Boondoggle
July 15, 2008 9:30pm
I like that word--"boondoggle." I don't know how Webster's defines it, but for me it's the willy nilly …
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DONE.
June 7, 2008 2:18am
Today was the first day of not driving across town to have Carl the Radiation Monster loom over me for a minute and forty seconds. …
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So close--4th Week
May 23, 2008 6:06pm
My daily gamma sessions are really beginning to show up now. I look cooked, especially in the area of the scars. But I …
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I liked your reply to Too many deaths, I admire your attitude
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Flower
I really like making my mom smile. She's BP (bipolar) and when she gets depressed, she gets really, really, really down sometimes. When my sister was alive, she'd scheme together to make plays or jokes to cheer her up. My mom doesn't smile much on her own, so us getting her to smile was the best thing ever. Having her hug me not because she was upset and needed comfort, but because she was so happy she needed to share it with someone. Ever since my dad died, it's been harder on her, and now that my sister's died too... she's needed all the smiles i could possibly put on her face. We do the craziest things together just so she'll smile, like bake cookies at three AM and eat them in front of the fireplace in the middle of summer. That's something i really, really enjoy doing. I love being the one to make my mom smile.
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Hug
Thanks, you can have a hug too.
High Five
that's just politics. They declare WTF on each other and if they though you'd like to hear it they'd declare a WTF campaign, I'm guessing FOX will say it first LOL
High Five
I love ya, toad. But you know that. You keep writing those stupid dog excerpts, they're good for you!
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a SiblingMy brother Joe died by suicide a year ago this month. It has been a struggle to come to grips with it. My family is close, and we all suffer together through this, every single day. It's changed my life like someone turned off the lights and now it's like groping in the dark.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- It's a deep, painful thing. I've never cried like I do for him. Physically draining and leaves me looking beat up the next day.
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- Went to a couple of grief sessions the week after he was found.Just rehashed the day and how it felt.I was given a list of post-traumatic responses to grief, it helped.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I'm spiritual. My faith in God's mercy and love for us no matter what we do will heal both my brother and myself.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Not big on taking pills, don't think spending an hour talking to a paid professional who hasn't been crippled by a tragedy is worth my money or time.
Close Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
My younger brother Joe died by suicide in April of 2006.
Treatments
- Patience Working / Worked
- I get through the rough days hoping for a better one.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Suicide is a different kind of death, a different grief, and a different healing process. My best friend at work lost her husband by suicide also, and it helps to talk to her about the "bad days." We know how different it can be.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I keep a journal that is not so bright and wonderful. I put the dark feelings in it and let them live there, as much as I can.
Open Breast Cancer
I'm here cuz I got bad news today and don't know what to expect. I'm afraid and confused and feel doomed. I don't know anything right now except that it's tubular carcinoma.
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