Journal Entry for August 29, 2008
August 29, 2008 12:56am
Ok, so tonight was extremely shitty. Johns dad was supposed to get his stuff, but John called and said that if I brought it to him he would be …
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amandalynn
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is home!! miss all of you so much!
About Me
I am a single mother of a beautiful little girl named Lacy. I work and go to school, so Im pretty busy. I am about to be divorced, it's all just a matter of money right now. My little girl is my entire life. I dont know how I smiled before she was born!
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reading, bumming online, playing with lacy, listening to my mp3, art, poetry, being outside, driving, spending time with friends&family. I also have a myspace if anyone wants to add me! myspace.com/thesesmallhours05 and yahoo messenger amandalrouse@yahoo.com
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Journal Entry for August 28, 2008
August 28, 2008 6:08pm
Well, today has been interesting.
I feel like shit still, but have been functioning. Usually after a break-up I just lay around mopey, let the …
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Heartbroken
August 27, 2008 10:07pm
Well, its been a day and a half since Ive seen John...and now it's starting to set in.
It will be many more days...never again will I …
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Its over.
August 26, 2008 6:47pm
Ok. So, I just did something huge.
Im so devastated, but proud of myself at the same time. Here is the back story. You all know …
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Support Groups
Close Families of Prisoners
my husband Mark(soon to be ex) was arrested in April of 2007, and will be in prison for a very long time. I dont think I knew the man I married. Its been hard, but Im finally doing better.
Treatments
- Time Somewhat Helpful
- helping a little..I have good days and bad ones
Close Single Parenting
Every single day is a struggle.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionmy husband went to jail for something horrible. Im having issues with guilt, blaming myself sometimes, etc. For the most part though, I am getting better.
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- with a happy, healthy little girl who could be sad all the time?
Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)
My little girl just turned two. Im trying to navigate my way gracefully through the "NO" phase, and horrible tantrums!
Treatments
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- Play Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Positive Reinforcement Somewhat Helpful
Open Financial Challenges
single mom...nuff said
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
i have been physically and emotionally abused for so many years of my life.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Ive been struggling with my weight and poor self image for years! I reeeally wanna get down to a healthy size.
Treatments
- Eating Healthier Foods Somewhat Helpful
- mmm its hard..I loove soda. Thats my biggest thing
Open Infidelity
my husband (ex) cheated on me. The love of my life..betrayed me..Im heartbroken..He told me its nothing I did..but I still beat myself up
Treatments
- Divorce Working / Worked
Open Breakups & Divorce
Filing for divorce.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Love Not Working
- Music Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I have so many supportive friends..my family is pushing me to file..but Im going through so much pain right now, Im just not ready yet.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- daily strength, my daughter, and a few friends are the only reason Ive made it so far
- Talking Working / Worked
- Time Not Working
Open Anxiety
Ive been officially diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, and am about to start taking meds. I have CRAZY fears about something happening to myself or my daughter. It keeps me from getting out of bed somedays. It is SO OVERWHELMING.
Open College Stress
Im a single mother, and go to school full time. HELP!
Open Sexual Abuse
I have never been "brutally" raped, but have finally come to terms with what my ex husband did to me for years. He is in jail right now for raping another woman. He used to pressure me into sex, even when I was pregnant and it hurt so bad, I would cry. He never cared. I had to have sex with him every time he wanted it, and every WAY he wanted it. I think coming to terms with the fact that I am also a victim, will help me get through this.
Treatments
Open Codependency
Ive noticed that Im really codepenent sometimes. I wanna break this.
Treatments
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
Open Self-Injury
Well, this is a fairly new thing. I dont know what the heck is the matter with me. Sometime I hit myself, or cut when I get really upset. I feel like Im losing control.
Treatments
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- Havent really opened up to anyone about it yet. Im still trying to get past my own shame for that.
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