well i just cant believe this this …
well i just cant believe this this is the second time ive caught my hubby texting anoither woman he already had an …
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Still very sad and high anxiety today. I have so much I need to do, as far as making important phone calls and applying for jobs, but I have no energy to do them, and I want to hide in my apartment and not talk to anyone.
Everywhere I go in this town it reminds me of her, of us, of the family we had. I hate this town. But I cannot leave; I refuse to let her make me a part time dad.
The not being friends thing with my wife is really hurting me. I know its best. I cant give in. Theres no way I can be friends with her when I cant fogive her for being with him. She does not care about me, I have to wake up and realize that, as much as that sucks to believe.
She emails me now in short one sentance question and answers. I do the same to her. There is no love or emotion there from her, it hurts so bad. Of course she has the whole week with her boyfriend so why would she care about talking to me now? What a selfish, sad bitch. She thinks she is so smart and so together, but she cant spend ONE night alone, not ONE. There is no strength in that, that is cowardlyness.
I still cant believe she lied to me about the driving condintions on Sunday just to get me home so I could pick up the boys and she could see her boyfriend. What kind of person does that?
Something has to change for me. I cant continue like this. I dont want to go to the loony bin because she will use it as an excuse to take my kids away from me. So I have to find a way to get through it.
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You will be okay and you will find the strength to keep moving forward. As hard as it is to not be in daily contact, etc with her it really is for the best until you are in aplace that you can handle that and right now it doesnt appear to be in your best interest. Hang in there :)
kokie
You will get through this! I know its very hard right now, but you need to let her know that she isn't going to hurt you anymore..emotionally. You'll heal day by day. I remember when I first went through this. I thought my life was over. You have kids. Be strong for those kids. They need a stable parent, because it's obvious that their mother isn't. I am praying for you to have strength. ((HUGE HUGS))
Christye07
You have to look at other sources of affection. Like for the first time, yourself. Believe it or not. You can get through this. Codependency is just a habit you have to break. You may have put other's needs ahead of yourself for too long and you need to focus on learning to look inward and be ok. She isn't and shouldn't your source of happiness. You can and will find other sources of happiness. Letting go is painful but in time you will. In the meantime, don't beat yourself up too much. Talk to someone, find a counselor and talk about everything. It's better than this. I did and I am beginning to feel better.
hennings74
you will get through this!!!! Just try to stay strong, I have been reading the book Codependend no more, and it has been helping me alot! Maybe it would help you. Maybe it is time you start liveing for yourself, and not worry so much about her, and what she is doing, I know it sounds hard to do, but believe me, once you learn to let go and distance yourself, from her and what she is doing in her life, you will begin to feel better, about yourself. Take from somenone, who know what you are going through, I wish you all the happiness in the world,and the best of luck with dealing with this! Hugs Julie
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