pattongb's Journal

Havent been around much. Things are going great. I have lost 70 pounds and am almost at the goal weight i set for myself 5 years ago and just never got to.  Well divorce seems to have been the diet I needed.

Work is good, one more week and I start my official GM duties.  Should be challenging and rewarding.  Finally start making a decent wage too.

Im dating someone named Joelle. She is a teacher from Green Bay and I really like her.  She sent me a dozen roses to me for my birthday! I havent gotten flowers from a girl since 1994! Was awesome.

Tonight im going to Green Bay for my birthday and hanging out with friends for dinner and some drinks. Should be awesome as I havent done anything for my birthday in a long long time.

Well things are going ok.   Im a bit down today, but it was an emotional weekend.

I basically broke up with all 3 of my girl "friends".    Becky I just like her too much as a person to keep leading her on. That wasnt my intention, but she seems to like me more than I like her, and I dont want to break her heart.  So I broke it off.

Terri, well Terri is just plain crazy.  I like her a lot; mostly because she is a wild child, and she is sooo much fun to be with.  But she has so many deep issues, that I cant even begin to deal with.  I told her not to call me or txt me anymore; I just cant deal with the bullshit.

Kathleen.  Well Kathleen is everything I would ever want in a woman.  Smart, great career, funny, loving.  She is very very pretty.   So whats the rub?  Well I met her on friday for the first time and she is very large.  Id say obese almost.  I know thats a terrible reason to not like someone, especially someone so special.  But I have to be at least a little bit physically attracted to a new mate.  Im just not with her.. Sucks too, because she is awesome.   I havent told her yet that im not interested, its gonna be tough.  I will probably do it tonight or tomorrow.  

So thats that.  3 possibilities and no outcome worth talking about. Im back to square one. Which is ok.   

On the flip side I went to see a band on saturday with my brother, and 2 ladies pulled me onto the dance floor, and at the end of the night asked for my #.   One of them was a very attractive blonde who is a teacher.  I will probably call her tonight to see if she is interested in getting to know me better.

Im really not looking forward to being alone every night this week (when I dont have the boys); but I suppose I will make it through.

I just wish I could start my new job title already and start making some decent money.  The money im making in training sucks so bad.  At least im working I suppose.   

Feeling alright today still.   Im a bit nervous about my new job starting tomorrow.  I have 3 months to prove to them that I can handle the GM job.  Its going to be a lot of pressure.  But I have confidence in myself, I know im capable.   

The stbx and I are struggling today.  I was stupid and had a few too many on friday night and sent her some really mean txt messages.  It was really dumb.   I dont want to alienate her as I need her to work with me on money and custody issues for a while.   I apologized 3x but she is still mad. Im sure she will be for a while.    

I dont really miss her at all lately.  I just dont see her anymore when I look in her face or talk to her.  She is this totally different person.    Im also starting to really enjoy my personal freedom.

I have 3 girls talking to me right now.  Becky the original girl from 1st date, she seems to be a bit over the top for me so im trying to back off a bit.   Terri, who is super hot, but a bit of a wild child; and she likes me but has feelings for her ex still, so im being very carefull there.   And then there is Kathleen.  Kathleen is amazing.  Masters degree in Psychology, very funny and cute.  So sweet.   Im trying very hard not too like her too much.   We are going out on a date Friday.  Im a bit nervous that we will like each other too much right away.  We talk for hours and really like our conversations.   Im trying to stay smart.