zoi's Journal

Oh, God I am writing this with tears and shaking like crazy.  This weekend was absolutely horrible.  My X came to my apt and attacted me and my guy friend.  He brought our 5yo son into my apt and told him to see his slut/whore mommy's boyfriend that she has sex with.  I was talking to a 911 operator when he punched my jaw.  He left with my son and then called me multiple times to tell me that he was going to crash and kill himself and Jacob.  He put Jacob on the phone and told him to tell me bye casue he was going to heaven.  Jacob was crying so loudly.  The police came and we were able to lure X back.  He said they would have to shoot/kill him.  He jumped out of the truck with Jacob and ran yelling SHOOT ME/KILL ME!  He passed the police and tackled me.  The police then got him and I got Jacob.  I have been at many different offices obtaining emergency protective orcers and trespassing warnings and filing chzrges.  I'm exhausted and now scared out of my mind cause he will be let out today.  I know his next visit to me will be to kill me.  I've everything humanyly possible to protect myself but he will do it if he really wants to.  Ths is such a horrible feeling.  I've canceled all my online accounts cause it seems he ahs gotten ito them somehow.  Google, I think, is how he found them.  He quoted some things I had on sites.  Scary.  CPS is now involved and I wish someone would tell me I could keep my kids away from him.  Today I meet with the county attorney.  Hopefully they have more help.  If Jacob wasn't in his arms I would've wished the police would've shot him.  I did not cancel this DS account because I really need you guess right now...