Journal Entry for April 22, 2008
Dear Friends,
This weekend was somewhat strange for me. I went up north to my cottage, another tree had fallen and it took out part of my …
I have 3 kids. Was married for ten years. And I thought it was a good marriage, not the best, but solid. I am a very passionate person about the things that I love and matter to me, both a vice and a virtue about my character. I am normally a very strong and secure person. A broken heart has a way of completely shattering your ego I suppose. My life hit rock bottom when he left, and I am climbing my way back up. I know it's a process; it feels more like a jail term. I used to be a socialite with a zesty life. Then I met and married the man I thought was my best friend in life. But I was wrong. He said and did all the right things. We had achieved so much and slowly, gradually his drinking got worse. His neglect and never coming home got worse. Then one day, just before Christmas two years ago he told me he didn't love and never did. It's so hard to believe when you look back.
I love to cook, work out at the gym, coach and play soccer, bike riding, reading, movies, and travel. I want to be full of life again, like I was years before. I am training for my first triathlon in June 2008. I want to feel like a winner again. I love live music and watching bands at my local spot. I'm a good mom and being with my kids, caring and nurturing them makes me feel good and gives me hope for the future.
Dear Friends,
This weekend was somewhat strange for me. I went up north to my cottage, another tree had fallen and it took out part of my …
Today is going to be a good day. I start training in the water today for my triathlon. Very nervous for this event in June. Who …
Hey friend. Did you complete the sports event? How are you? Feeling better, seeing anyone? Email if you see this! Hugs, Rhonda
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I have always been a healthy person. After babymaking I had a hard time getting back into fitness. But now after 3 years I can say I am really proud of where I am. I have 3 kids, twins age 8 and a 10 year old. Joining the gym and hiring a trainer was the best decision I had ever made. Tim is still working with me and I am finding his teachings, combined with my personal pain from this separation is helping me cope, not all the time, but some of the time.
I've been married for ten years. What I thought was a decent marriage, not without its typical issues, turned out to be a lie. He is going thru a depression. All the while, absent from the house, absent from the kids. Then he decides, I don't want this relationship or this marriage anymore. I want out. I'm thrown completely and totally off kilter. I am devastated. I tried twice to take my own life. And I can't even do it. So here I am, emotionally stranded, as he lives in the basement.
I was diagnosed with HPV in my early 20's. During a routine pap they found a growth in my Cervix which turned out to be Cancerous. My doctor suggested I have a baby sooner than later as a means to reduce the possiblity of another flare. She said that the growth was small and no big deal. Ten years later after my husband announced that he wanted out of our marriage, during another routine pap, they found another growth. Now what?
3 Days before Xmas last year my husband announced that he was not happy with me and wanted out. Now, months later I am starting to believe there is someone else in his life that he is involved with and it's not me.