lostson's Journal

Wow is my life a mess right now! My parents and I are no longer speaking for reason I'd rather not say. My grandmother no longer accepts me as her granddaughter. I lost my job and currently have nothing. Jake and I are at constant battles with each other. I just almost want to end it all, but that would be way too easy. I know God will turn my life around sometime, it's just a matter of when and how. This year has been nothing but pure hell. Oh well I'm better off without my job at Wal-Mart. Just to let everyone know, Wal-Mart does treat their employees like crap. They fired me for bogus accusations (no I wasn't stealing). Than the next day they took it back and supposidly told me I could have my job back. I was fired and than they want to take that back after treating me like they did? I was pissed. Nothing seems to be going the way I want it to, but than again when does it? Maybe this is God's way of getting me out of Wal-Mart and into something that He needs me in. I sure hope that is the case because I hate being left at home. I'm just not a home body. I'm worker. Oh well I guess being a housewife is my full time job (the pay sucks, there are a few benefits {making husband happy, sleeping in}, and you do keep busy). I'm trying to think of this as a good thing, but I just can't help but worry. Jake and I have rent, car insurance, car payment, mediacom bills to pay. Not to mention the student loans and medical bills. We can't do that on one paycheck. Oh well this week I at least get paid and I should be getting some temp jobs soon. Which is good because I get paid weekly than. Oh well time to get back to my full time job of cleaning house! LOL