I am 22 years old, I love writting poetry and hanging out with friends.Im living with my Aunt, Uncle and cousin in New Zealand.I am currently working as a sales person in Number One Shoewarehouse.I am very interested in mental health and would like to do a course to become a mental health support worker.I would also like to work with special needs kids.Most of my friends have mental health problems and I support them as much as possible they mainly have bipolar.They are also extreamly supportive to me too.I go to a support group called Balance.I have always been a very careing person and looked after injured animals when I was young.I was also abused from age five to seven and never want to go through anything like that again.My dark side is my poetry writing and art work.I am very creative and cannot live without a pencil or a pen.I am hoping that I will come out of this deep depression and anxiety at some stage.It really does stop me in lots of ways.My family struggle to understand what Im going through.I offten feel that I give out a lot because I want to help but I don't recive much in return.My emotional pain over the last six years has been life changing, it is though Ive been living with a broken heart and still am, it just wont heal.However I know that God is here for me.
I'm working and hate my job!.I aslo love to buy clothes and make my own styles, I love design and art.I write a lot of poetry and am also writing a novel, that will take a few years to complete.I'd love to have another pet, my dog was killed a few years ago.A cat came to me but I had give him up because the cats next door were beating him up and I was moving.I never want to do that again.I have no idea if he is still alive but he was a beautiful long leged ginger and white cat that followed my like a dog every where I went.I find I can mix into most groups when it comes to friends, Ive been friends with very wealthy people and very poor, I think Im some where in between and getting poorer.I'd like to live my life finalcialy comfortable not sticking rich.If I won a million dollars Id give a lot of it away to people who really needed it.
stardust400 replied to their discussion post Awesum feeling! in the Bipolar Disorder support group 10:56pm
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Hi read your post get back to me I have something to tell you... Jan
hi star, am on seroquel too but im in rush now and have to go for a while but will get back to you asap Laura
hi saw your post on alcoholism site, if its a cry for help , try and post again saying "ou want to stop drinking!"cause i dont think people got that, i have mental illness too, and i know we dont always say what we need to.message me if you like, i have stopped drinking for 9 months now,and its helping with my mental heath. love Alice x
LOTS OF HUGS TO BRIGHTEN YOUR DAY! HAVE A SAFE,LABOR DAY WEEKEND HAVE A GOOD DAY GOD BLESS
I go through what you are through almoist every week. My bipolar has been a mess for a while and I am so mad and yet so tired of having to live with this. I have to remember I am strong and so are, You can do it...It will pass..Much love sending your way.....
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Two of my best friends have bipolar,I have just been dignosed as psychotic depression that goes into bipolar.I want to understand it better.
Having big problems sleeping.Just been put on Zoplicone.
I SI every now and then,either burn or cut with a knife.I need to feel pain.
I have a first time serious bf,we are thinking about getting married.So far we are doing really well,I know there will be many challanges up ahead due to us both having menatl illnesses.I believe we can push through them.
My bulimia has returned after seven years of being well.
I wouldn't call myself an alcoholic but a heavy drinker.Stopped for a year but now at it again.
