jecardoso's Journal

I am feeling really horrible.  I just got out of the hospital.  I was pregnant with triples and went into preterm labor.  I delievered all thres of my babies and I was only 5 1/5 months.  I delievered one baby and a week later is when I delievered the other 2.  They were too young to live.  I have to leave the hospital after 36 hours of labor with no babies.  I am having a really hard time dealing iwth this.  I have to be home on maternity leave per my doctors orders.  Being home is hard.  I have a lot of time to think about everything and it is driving me crazy.  I am looking forward to getting back to work and start trying to have a baby again.  It took my husband and I 4 years with fertility treatments to get as far as we did.  I hope it doesn't take that long again.  I am 28 years old and having this problem is really hard.  I have PCOS, poylcysticoverainsyndrom.  I thought I was blessed that I was going to have 3 babies.  I heart has been removed. I feel empty.