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Journal Entry for April 30, 2007 Mood

Monday, April 30, 2007

Everyone want to know what I am feeling. I hate them all for leaving me here alone. No one to love, to hold, to say I love you too. I hate them for making me feel like I am no good and worthless. I hate living this way every day. I hate the pain and the heart ache. I hate wanting to die with them every day. I hate the meds and the people tell me they no what I feel. How can anyone know. Noone has lost so much and had to deal with it. I am so ready to die and be with my Wayne. God help me. I need him so much That I don't know if I can still do this. My life is over and I cannot cope with it any more. I am so done. I cannot do this anymore. I cannot take any more please for give me.....

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I'm the first to admit that I really don't understand how you feel. I'm at a loss for words, my friend. I can only commit to holding your hand, loving you and praying for you ... I care

oxygen
We all care. We don't know how you feel. Your life isn't over. Thee are people that still want to be in your life, like John. Yes, there are people that have lost as much as you and more. One day at a time, they picked themselves up and started over, and you will too. Noone wants to take meds, but we do to stay with those who need us. Do you want your sons last memory of you lying on the floor dead? I think not, they would never be the same. They would be alone then and they would forever know you chose to leave them. My prayers are with you.

claire604
We do all care for you, just breathe, take it slowly, your life isn't over , you have so much to live for , you might not see it now, but you do. Your kids need you.. prayers and Hugs,,:-)

lindacma