dalynda's Journal

What an icky day.  DH lost his glasses he just got on Monday, I had waited to call SSDI until today ( about my back pay) and when I did I found out not one thing had been done with it in 90 plus days.  I had a real meltdown. I screamed and cried and just plain threw a temper tantrum.  Then...I prayed, that good ol Serenity Prayer that has gotten me through more than my share of rotten days and painful situations.  As usual, when I am done saying it 10 times in a row, I felt better. Then I prayed to God to forgive me for swearing and acting unbecoming just because I am worried about bill collectors....Money....I really hate it!  I have written before that my mom and dad were alcoholics (sp?) when I was born .  Dad made good money so I never wanted for ANYTHING. Well, maybe love and a little instruction on the importance of saving a dime once in a while.  But Im not one of those kind of people I hate...I mean the ones that blame everything in my adult life that is going wrong on the fact my parents weren't perfect.  Actually I have always prided (is that a word?) myself on growing up in spite of what happened at home.  But, with me, money has always been like food. When it's there I love spending it happily, and I DO and when it isn't there I love spending it angrily and I DO. This is why I am fat and in debt!!! (little joke there but sadly true).  Anyway, stress is the absolutely last thing I need right now because I am finally in nice hot weather and feeling pretty darn good physically.  Wow, wordy tonight aren't I.? But what would I do without this forum to vent and to allllll of my current and future friends out there... I love you !