justgirl's Journal

I have to tell you, so far 2008 sucks. Still time for it to turn around and pray everyday it does. January 2 my sister in law writes me an email telling me to grow up, call my brother and be a sister. I couldn't believe it. Lets see, a little back round here. Both times my husband was in Iraq he never called me to check on me. My only brother. And while my husband was in Iraq he was working on boats walking distance from me and never once stopped by or called to tell me he was down the road. I found out he was there on accident and I went down taking him lunch and we talked. I drove three hours specially in November to see both my brother and sister in law alone (husband had to work). I explained all this to them and told them December has been a horrible time for me. I didn't send out cards and I have not felt like talking to anyone with the stress I been under and being in this dark hole. My sister in law had surgery Monday and I sent her flowers. My sister in law couldn't talk so my brother calls me yesterday evening to thank me and to say sorry about the email and all I am going therw. I have no idea what happen but no sooner did he say that he started yelling at me about things at his wedding 11 years ago. He told me to cut the shit. I said what are you talking about??? I am sorry we left your wedding reception early, Ed (my husband) had pneumonia and was passing out. He just kept yelling. (He has a drinking problem). I broke in and said look, glad Sue loves the flowers, I love you, good-bye. He tried 3 more times to call and I didn't answer. I mean gee, you tell your brother your depressed and in a dark hole so he throws dirt on my face?? With everything going on with my son and I was holding it together it took my brother to break me. I just cried and cried. All better now ;-). But I just can't believe the crap this year.

Ashlee had her 5 day chemo January 2. It really made her sick this time. She still isn't feeling well. They wonder if the break just made things worse. Bright side she has an appointment the 11th to see if they can remove the cancer. It is now the size of a lemon and if they can get a half inch around it they can get it out and all she will have is radiation and no more chemo.  :-).

Well I have a doctor appointment tomorrow. I plan on telling her the enormous amount of stess (mom's orders) I am under. I am sure will get a pat on the hand and a there there. But figure I would mention it.

Hope everyone has a great day, drama free including me...ha. Love and hugs, Mary