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So, I have been examining my life lately..Am I happy? When am I happy? What makes me happy? I have decided on thing makes me happy. ME...I have decided to be happy no matter what those around me are doing. I have learned that happiness is realitive. Realitive to how you let those around you affect you. My husband's anger has nothing to do with me. So, why do I feel the need to even react to it? Guess what? I tried it is works!!! As a matter of fact, it workd very well.. I work with the most bitchy women you could ever meet..I tried just not letting theie porblems effect my mood and it worked. I think that we spend too much time worring about what other people are doing that willmake us in a bad mood, and not enough time just choosing to be happy!!! People who trive on anger become angry. People who decide to be happy become happy....workin so far we shall see if my theory works...
So I wake-up this morning in a really great mood. Then the shit hits the fan. My husband is still mad at my cousin for attacking him the day all the crazy shit happened. But, instead of talking to him about that he wants to talk about a kayak that was traded for parts for a motorcycle. I don't know what to do. The police were called by both of them. They told my husband he would have to filed in small claims court over it. I really thought they would have made up by now. They have been friends longer than I have known my husband and my cousin is how I meet my husband in the first place. What do I do? The two men who have always been my best friends hate each other now. My cousin will not even answer my phone. My husband has taken off with our friends to cool off. Where am I as usual at home taking care of my son. it would not bother me if he was just with our guy friend, but he is with my best girl friend too. this is not the first time she has went of with the two of them and it kind of bothers me. I don't go do stuff with her man without her...O well!! such is my life...I clean up messes and that is all I do......
So today was suppose to be a fun day with my son. How often to I get the day off anymore?? Well, I lost it. My house is nasty. I had a comp audit for my husband. Did I mention he broke the computers the last spell he had. You got it, I had to fix the computers before I could print off the inof needed. So, between that and my son acting like his father, I lost my cool disposition. My son was suppose to be cleaning the porch off. What is he doing? He is taking the shop vac and using ist in his turtle tank. Everything went everywhere. Guess who gets to clean that up too. You got it...ME!!! I know I should find something else to bitch about, but I am the only one paying bills, cleaning house, cooking, running and still having to deal with his business shit. I am becoming overwhelmed again. I did figure out something today. I am not a good stay at home mom like I thought I was all those years I did it. I need to work...I have to work...For no other reason than me time. How sad is that when you have to go to work to get a break from reality.....
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